crushed
ppl haf monday blues...i'm having monday black
haix...
was overall not a good day
which ended HORRIBLY
haix...
pe was ok..
although i still dun like tt other class
haix..
went for bio lect
but ended up slacking outside the lt1
after leaving our bags inside
talking abt how we spent our weekend
i guess we all didn't haf a great weekend either
heard some news..
sad news
wad else
chem lect
haix...
was so tired
i slept a little
the lt was stuffy
air com prob
had huge fans in there
but still
after tt
went for break
was slacking in the canteen
waiting for time to pass
den went for bio tut
class was low
everyone's mood was just blue
break
ate
den gp
i didn't sleep
maths tut
haix...
trying to listen
but just too tired
finally the day ended
went off
talked to del tan n mel
bitching session
yup
went off at 330
to wait for danny the repairman
after he came
i went off to get sumthing to eat
with mel
talked to mel's workers
den went off for band
haix...
damn bloody f up day
stuff happened
like bloody hell...
it came to a point
there was no other way
if things turn out too ugly or harsh
den tt's too damn bloody bad
my limits been pushed way too damn far
control was no longer an option
at this point of time
i really dun haf the faith to hope for anything anymore
my hopes has been crushed too many times
no way to ever fix it
my heart has been broken into a million pieces
and one by one
each piece is being crushed into dust
wadever i said
i meant it
i dun care if anyone bother to listen
like wadever k?
attitude?
i haf it too
when i walked out
control slipped
cracks haf been appearing
and widening day by day
breakdown is not far
i hate it when tears fall
cuz sumhow i dunno why i cry
for wad cause?
is there even anything to cry for?
i really dunno
i thank God
for giving me
such wonderful n supportive frens
mel n franz came
den amanda
thanks for just being there
for caring
mel : my dear gal tt's alwaes there for me
no matter where n when.. u're alwaes there
amanda : my darling who cared so much for me..
thanks for ur understanding n encouragement
franz : i'll think abt wad u said.. thanks for the words
i dunno how to go on
its too tempting to just not care
but i can't
i just can't
its not in me to just not care
haix...
too tired n drained
not prepared to face tml yet
can time stop now??
until i haf time to think
came home
ate
haix...
yet another blow
will it ever stop?
one after another
haix...
i dread for tt day to come
i feel so DAMN useless for letting someone down yet AGAIN
i feel so useless..
i dunno how to move on anymore
i need time
to recover
problems everywhere
i'm bearly able to crawl on anymore
haix...
nothing more tt i can sae
too drained to think more
i dun think it needed courage
it was desperation
my bloody f up monday
-in times of extreme pain...i so hoped u could be there..-
posted by maG @ 11:57 PM
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