unbearable
living in the aftermath of the scream festit sucks
i dunno how it became my fight in the first place
but it has
and it seems
all the anger is directed to me
if u dun wan to listen den fine
i've got nothing more to sae
sumtimes words leave the deepest hurts
i told u wad i felt
but u took it as an attack
if u want to stay pissed den do so
u wan results
i'll show u
maybe in the first place
u could haf just stopped at 2
save u all the worry
and u'll haf the two perfect kids tt u wan
both that is smart and so guai
the opposite of me
den u wun haf to feel alwaes so disapointed in me
they are all u wan
den u should haf not brought me into this world in the first place
u said u can't help but compare
but its alwaes me against them
u said u treat us fair
but u never trusted me
so its now like this
i'll talk to u when i haf to
u'll speak if u wan to
this place called home
its no longer a place i wanna be
not when u're there
its a shelter and a place to sleep
it hurts to live now
there's just too many things
troubling me.hampering me.hurting me
so now
where do i turn to
who do i look to
first day since the holidays started
that i'm spending it at home
the rest at the week will be in school
maybe it a relief
maybe not
hais...
rainy rainy day
yest was a tiring day
had lessons at 830
straight after that
band
which went on for the entire day
combined rehearsal was a mess
the song now is worst den the one before
it sound so wrong
the locking up was tiring
big thanks to daniel
for helping me keep instru
the school's real dark at night
got home n just k.o.ed
stress
its building
hais...
not the only one tt feels it
sumtimes
it just gets too tiring
to worry abt so damn much
trying so hard
to not let threats become reality
but one person's strength is not enough
i dun want it to happen
but there's so many things just causing it to
somehow
i dun feel like they care much abt it
time is ticking away
his patience is fading
one or two cannot change his mind
but where are the rest?
i dunno
i can see n feel the disappointment
but i can't do anything to take tt disappointment away
cuz i'm just one person
group effort
where to find it?
i'm getting a little too worn out
cuz it seems
all my efforts haf gone down the drain
tried so hard
and i'm not the only one
but it seems to change nothing
i dunno wad to do
so close to the end yet
it seems they dun realise
the gravity of his words
but i can't seem to get it through
to them
steel walls
tired so tired
and den there's yet another problem
wat am i to do abt that
so now
i haf to stand alone
facing too much
from too many sides
giving up is not an option
neither is failing
but that's not up to me now
2 months
and i'll noe the outcome
when its done
i wun come back
from this far..all i can sae to u..is take care
posted by maG @ 4:09 PM
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