end of a week.......
time really fliesso fast
but
once it pass
it can never be recaptured
it's a real tiring and problematic day
haven been feeling
very well these few days
it's the combination of
not enough sleep and stress
rained
in the morn
had gp
did comprehension
but wasn't able to finish the aq
had break
den maths lect
mr chow lecturing
funny guy
real lame
for once
i didn't feel like sleeping in a lect
hmmm...
i realised
that i'm sms-ing a lot these few days
i'm so screwed for this month's bill
had chem tutorial next
discussed yest spa prac
supposed to mark for one other
hmm...
bio lect next
almost fell asleep a few times again
really cannot concentrate
ya
next was bio prac
also another spa trial prac
dies
the experiment was difficult
and i really dun like the smell of kerozene
i wrote a whole lot of crap in it
haix
brain not functioning correctly
when was let off
brain drain
haix
most of them went off
shopping.visiting.home
to mel : i'm real sorry.... but i can't help it.. maybe u're rite... it's really taking alot of my time... but i wun forget u ya?? please try to understand... it's hard on me too..
went to band room
left my bag there
den went to buy markers
den had lunch with rachel
and later darren came along
amanda came back with ice cream
for rachel
things came up
decisions were made
haix
i really dunno wad to do anymore
so how am i to go on from here?
i really dunno
i've tried and tried
i noe..
there's always tt way
but
i really feel that it wun work
yes
i noe
i haven tried it
but tt's wad i feel
i dun wan to make it
feel like a chore
that's wat i think will happen
so wad will i do?
try sum more
cause i wun give up
actions n words
can affect ppl arnd u
be careful wat is said
a sentence said in sacarsm
can really dampen another's mood
i dunno if u noe
but tt's wad i feel
only sectionals today
ended early too
at 4
stayed behind
slacking n trying to sleep
went to library to do things
den went to bubble tea stall
got food for chong hui n wei xiang
went to uncle louis
boon hwee n kiong wee ate there
me.amanda.grace had our bubble tea n waffle
yet again
things came up
totally spoil mood
it seems today
is the day where i can't eat without things coming up
do u noe
wad's it like to get 2 ppl pissed of at u at the same time
i do
i dun blame anyone
cuz it's also my fault that i forgot too
but man
it really suck u noe
to be always the one that get this kind of thing
yes everyone gets it too
but argh...
let me vent my frustrations too ya?
due to that incident
i threw away half of a waffle
not much mood after tt
went bac band room
cleaned up tha place
grace swept floor
i did the chairs
cleared many of the things lying arnd
threw away lots of junk
went out to slack
clarie can't make it tml
sad
but will still be going cut hair i think
and shopping
headache again
wan to sae thanks to that senior that came out with the medicated oil
yupz
feeling feverish and headachin again
haix
sumthing's wrong..with my head
haix...
spent most of the time talking to amanda n grace
saw some seniors tt i haven saw in a while
yup
they ended alumni arnd 9
went to off aircon
den lock up band rm
the seniors were playing soccer outside
they kept trying to kick the ball into the room went someone open the door
freaky la
think i almost got hit twice
haix
locked up finally
after opening again due to things left behind
walked out of school
sumhow
we ended up
hanging arnd at the out gate
mr lim dented his car
haix...
dunno but i think
he's had enough le..
after much thinking
went home
cabbed with amanda
amanda : dun think so much ya? will always be there for u... i hope tt it dosen't affect u too much... love u gal...
somehow..
seeing it happen
affected me too
yah...
i gez tt
it hard
real hard
i noe...
but do try to not think too much ya
i noe that i dun really haf the right to say anything
in such matters la
cuz i'm no better..
so
yet again
the week concluded
on such a note
haix...
misses...
i dunno how to describe
wat i feel
to see things..
but still not knowing
to hear things
but not understanding
instead bringing in more confusion
i dunno who to talk to anymore
cuz
it's really my problem now
cuz
i dun wan to face it..
but u noe wad
i think
i may just blurt it out soon
i think
i'm going crazy
cuz
i noe that if i do anything
everything will become worst
but somehow
i dun really wan to care so much
abt wad might happen if i do
and just blurt it all out
but i noe
i will regret it
becoming reckless
maybe
but
besides that
there's really nothing i can do
to reach a closure
should it be happy or sad
a short suffering...is better den a long one rite?
haix...
going mad
i wish that i will noe soon
cuz
it really really
tearing me apart
it's like being cut soo deep
that it doesn't bleed yet
but hurt so badly
it seems
that yet another scar is to be
left behind
but this time
it's so much
bigger and deeper
that's the difference
because u said u would...
i waited...
i still am..
posted by maG @ 11:58 PM
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