tired...
was so unwilling to get up todayhad to go early to open band room for ppl
hmmm...
rolled arnd in bed after the alarm rang
haha
decided to cab to school
so went out later
haix...
my hair was in a bad state
no idea why
=(
cabbed to school
reached a little early
opened band room
wah...
got a shock
when i heard frm franz tt lesson cancelled
like wad the hell
timing has been changed
time n time again
sianed
so now
i haf lessons tml n thurs
long long chem lessons
sian x3
haix..
nvm
so i stayed in band room
tied the chocs
with ribbon
did stuff
den went out to try to study
but ended up
going bac in the band room
and pei grace
sat there
staring at my notes n talking
den
went out to talk
phone batt was dying
didn't wan to charge last nite
thot it would last
guess not...
haix..
i'm getting tired
frm the constant probs
worried so much
worried alwaes abt the same things
haix...
sc trials for the 20th anniversary concert
teachers frm choir n co came in and mrs neo too
chonghui n grace conducted
yup
so now we wait
after tt
went out to pass mr lim his gift
talked to ch n amanda
haix....
decided sumthings
talked to mr lim
ch talked to the band
abt things
later
i talked to jc2s
haix..
i dunno wad to sae anymore
running out of ways to get to u all
talking
i wonder if it does any difference
but i'll try
standing there
talking
i hope it got some thinking and reflecting
haix...
stayed n waited for ppl to clear out
locked up arnd 3 plus
went to bb tea stall wif grace
den waited with her for her dad
til arnd 4
went cs collect my bro's contacts
saw julian at the interchange
went home
brother shocked me
-_-"
popped out of no where
haix...
it's been a tiring day
i dun need others to sae
cuz i noe there's probs
lots n lots of it
i cannot sae much
cuz i noe
tt i haf problems too
but i'm trying to solve them
are u?
if things are to be done
it must start frm the individual
before anything is said to others
relfect on oneself
cuz it will be of no use
if sumthing is said
when u urself does them
it would only seem two faced
tt's the first thing i think of
b4 i say anything
i dunno wat they think of the things i said
but at least
i noe some are thinking abt it
i'm trying so hard
cuz
i really dun wan to see
any regrets
in all of us
at the end of it all
i dun care how or wad others sae abt us
cuz we face different probs
and
maybe being an outsider and more experienced
they see more
but i wun let it drag me down
cuz i believe we can do it
should they wan to sae things
den tell it to me
cuz i dun mind comments
be it bad or good
even if it is directed to me
i'll listen n learn
it's getting more n more tiring
draining
it's like going against the current
i'm not giving up
till i reach the end
camp this week
i hope everything will works out
i hope lots of things
we'll see wat happens
i shall try
not to think anymore
cuz
the truth is rite there
maybe it has alwaes been there
but i finally got it
ya..
i'll pull through
scars will be all tt's left eventually
shadows in the past
thanks
i dun think u noe
but sumtimes
just a few words of care n concern
makes it much better
at least for a while
so thanks
for bothering to ask
even when u didn't noe wad's it abt
and offer a listening ear
should i need it
when i didn't noe how to explain
dun think u'll ever read this
but i'll like to say
thanks
-feel my pain-
posted by maG @ 8:51 PM
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