its killing me...
long long daymade it to school on time
bright and early
had compre test
write until hand hurts
den was break
was mostly occupied abt the bio SPA
maths lect
was in audi
didn't listen to wad was going on
was trying to get everything into my head
its real cold in the audi
but couldn't care le
mug mug mug
was so worried tt i'll just blank out
re wrote the entire thing again
so bloody long la...
was like dying frm all the writing
haix...
mr chow was lecturing
he's getting pissed off by the lect grp le
threatening to stop giving notes
haix...
wadever
study study
but nothing seems to go in
so dumb
chem tut
really tired le
dozed off near the end of the lesson
one of the few times tt i actually slept in a chem tut
haix...
really cannot ta han la
was supposed to haf bio lect
but i didn't go
went to 3rd level with choo n study
was real worried abt it le...
mel came after a while
got distracted by her
all too soon
it was time
walked all the way to bio lab
wah...
scared
when she said start
it seems that my pen never really stopped
it just flew
was furiously writing
1 hr
too little time for all the writing man
got some parts mixed up
but i guess i got most of it down
and surprising
had a little time to spare
was checking n re checking tt i didn't miss anything
cuz it certainly felt tt i did
haix...
prays hard tt i didn't la..
a comment made by someone
can't really remb who
'it was not SPA la,it is called speed writing'
haha
funny
i'm rather proud of myself
haha
wrote a total of 8 pages
tt's 4 foolscap paper k
yup
by the time we all left
most of us had lost some feeling in our writing hand
numb la...
haix..
went off to eat
tired
had a hard time eating
hurts la...
rushed off for band
nothing to sae
its the way things are
hate me if u must
haix...
combine was ok
hope we'll be able to reach dr lee's standard
oh ya
many seniors came back..
at least more den usual
yup
den dr lee left early
man
playing was a horror
mouth hurts frm playing
but i could not stop playing
ouch
sectionals
had this long talk with mr lim
i haf nth much to sae le
let's all hope the choices made are the right ones
for the sake of everyone
i prac a little for the japanese tune
hmm...
reminds me of the piece impressions of japn
think its nicer
played it for tj concert a long time ago
talked
band ended arnd 630
announcements
haix...
wad to sae abt tt?
nothing goes smoothly
to get things done
sumthings haf to be done
haix...
try being the bad guy
u'll learn alot
did stuff
packed my area
my file is exploding from all the stuff i leave in it
-_-"
ppl cleared out
after a while only a few of us were left
ya...
went off with grace
to tm
ok
its been 2 weeks since i stepped into tm...
2 weeks!!
went to long john to meet up with boonhwee.kiongwee.julian
ate
at least i tried too
gave up after a while
hurts too much le la
was stoning for most of the time
too tired to think
or talk
drained
wrung inside out
didn't matter much anyway
kw n julian were talking abt army
the other two were talking too
yup..
stoning or rather
just being inactive
the brain shuts down
not thinking of anything
closing out the world
too tired n too much things happening
its a release frm everything
to be in tt space where nothing can touch u
haix...
was too tired tt i couldn't really concentrate on wadever i was doing
grace
do take care
i'll be there through it all
u need to stay strong too
dun get let down so easily
as ironic as it may seem
failures are the mother to success
dun lose sight of ur ultimate goal
yup...
i'll let u punch if u wan la
hope u did feel better after that
as we walked out of tm
i stared out into the sky
hoping to see stars
but all i saw was darkness
so dark and bleak
so alike to wad i was feeling
sent grace off
went home
took a mil yrs to walk home
was just walking and thinking
thots just flowed
reached home
stoned more
mum made soup
had to down a whole big bowl
haix...
pain
it sumthing that assures me that i'm still alive
it dosen't take much to feel pain
no longer noe who i am
facade over facade
mask on top of more masks
who bothers to look below the surface
i now wonder
wad would haf happened if i had said sumthing
its too late to look back
-it killing me...bit by bit..-
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