at the crossroads of life
college road runheld at the same place
i actually do noe how to go there
but went to meet some of the class ppl
at the bus stop outside amanda's hse
waited for ppl until late
walked there frm the bus stop
reached there late
but almost half the class came together
so it was not too bad
almost immediately
the gals had to start running
ran and walked
tiring la
by the time we got back
guy's race starting le
class guys walked all the way la
think they were the last to come in
had a fun time seeing the guys' race
when the top few were coming in
later
spent most of the time
sitting arnd the area
was busy doing band stuff
and listening to music on sherlyn's mp3
next was prize giving
so enthu la us
sat rite at the front
alicia n ber did the class proud
alicia was 12th n ber 2nd!!
our house won the girls' campionship
was dismissed soon after
den the mental 'tug-of-war' began
haix..
so frustrating
to be stuck in the middle
i dun wan to hurt anyone
but
it's hard
when the other party dun give a shit abt the other's feelings
my heart was torn between the two
both are all my frens
haix
that horrible sinking feeling
of the situation
sucked big time
haix...
ended up
sending clarie n vee off
and going to amanda's hse after tt
haix...
watched hitch
halfway through
the pizzas we ordered came
there were quite alot of us there
abt 15?
started eating
and continued to watch
but after lunch
most of them became tired and quite a few were dozing off
i wasn't paying much attention to the show by then
taking pics and stuff
den after amanda's dad left
the volka came out
drank one glass
was watching finding nemo
the rest were either gambling
or sleeping
drank other glass
den
the problems started
one whole series of things
haix
too much to recount
so painful to think
it ended
with me
just sitting there
looking at the sleeping u
and crying
silent tears
that became sobs
that didn't end
for a long while
do u noe
how much it hurts
to noe
that 5 years of friendship
meant nothing to u
maybe i was naive
to put so much trust in friendships
always ended up
being so hurt by it
actions n words
are the most lethal weapons
i guess
no one really understands
nobody ever does
understand wat i feel
or am going through
yes
it's true tt i do
not say somethings
and tt we face a diff set of problems
but
did it really mean so little
i dunno
who saw
i guess many
but
it really did hurt
alot
so much so
tt i didn't really care
i dunno why
but
it alwaes happen to me
it's not the first time
tt i was hurt by close friends
but
i never do learn
haix...
all i can say
tt it will never be the same again
one incident
always changes the whole thing
at tt point of time
i really didn't noe who the turn to
really wanted to find sumone
who wasn't invloved
but
i guess
there's only me to depend on
eyes hurts
head hurts
heart hurts
real bad..
me being me...
i wait...
haix...
posted by maG @ 9:37 PM
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