finally its friday...
i reached school earlier todayas compared to the past few days
yeahness...
first 2 lessons were gp
had the debate thingy
was supposed to help write down
points for my grp on the whiteboard
but i was slow and dunno wad la
according to amanda
i wrote a little n den just stoned at the board
after the 1st speaker talked
haha
i really couldn't remember the word i wanted to use
so dumb la
lucky amanda came up n helped me
went by quite fast
den went for break
ate a little stuff
had 2 periods of maths lect after tt
was dozing off after a while
tired sia
den so boring too
mr chow was not in a very good mood too
so lect was more boring den normal
hmmm
some ppl's mood were not so good la
den kinda pissed another off
witnessed it
haix..
dunno wad's wrong nowadays
everyone's more n more tempremental
went off for chem tut
went by quickly
hmm...
having make up lessons in march hols for chem
sian ed
next was bio lect
was ok la
studied most of it in sec sch le
so quite easy
last 2 periods were bio prac
everyone was tired already
however the prac was quite fun
had to do with agar plates
but it was time consuming
so we were not let off early this time
went off to canteen with the class ppl
had lunch
tried sum food frm the western stall
not bad la
haha
my class ar
really share food like no one's business la
everyone just kope each other's food
rather funny la
so we ate n crapped
waiting for time to pass
arnd 2
went to band room with franz
talked to amanda t
den went off to get my bag
hmmm
amanda happy hor?
hehe
anyway
went for the ntu mass comm talk
the course is rather interesting
hmm...
but i'm not sure if tt's wad i wanna take
so i went off for band late
it was still sectionals
played a little
talked to someone
u noe wad
everyone's frustrated abt it
it's not as if we didn't try to do anything abt it
but u urself noe tt it's not so easy
i've tried to talk
but it doesn't seem to work
it just goes in one ear and rite out the other
but i try
not to get discouraged
if not
i would be sad n pissed off for almost every practise
at least
i tried
and am still trying
so dun be discouraged ya??
dr lee came
he decided to give thoery lesson instead of conducting
was teaching us his concepts on intonation
woah
can go mad learning
it takes a while to get it la
horizontal n veritical intonation
woahs
haha...
was freezing sitting there la
he taught for abt 2 hrs
den we were dismissed
went to slack with rach on the 3rd level
talked alot
abt life n stuff
went down
sat outside band room
and talked sum more
saw my senior shufen!
so long never see her le
haha
she's my senior frm tkgs n tpjc too
hmm...
haha
i remember being super scared of her then
those were the days man
went to track there
dear grace
i hope everything works out for u
dun be so frustrated ya
there's many here to help n support u
dun bottle it all up ya?
i'll be there for u
take care gal!!
went to eat dinner at tmart with grace n rachel
waited with grace for her dad
den took bus to interchange with rachel
haha
we ended up eating ice cream!!
arghz
dripped a little ice cream on my bag strap
haix...
talked n lamed arnd
den i went off home
reached rather late
arnd 10 plus
tiring day
planning to stay in bed for most of tml
haha
did my ears decieve me?
or did i really hear wad i heard?
haix...
i dunno
maybe i came up with the worst case conclusion
but tt's just me rite?
i dunno wad to feel anymore
so tired of the hoping
its so cold all of a sudden
so much so
tt i'm hurt by the stinging coldness
but i guess
i was the one who allowed myself
to be in tt position to feel such hurt
do u noe
sumtimes just being in a place or looking at things
reminds me of the past
thinking too much is not good
but i can't help it
flashbacks
haix...
trying to put up a brave front
trying to leave it behind
trying to let wounds heal
trying to let go
trying so hard
but
all the trying
is so tiring
drifting farther n farther
maybe we were never close to begin with
but wadever we had
is gone
or least tt's wad i feel
breaking into a million pieces
posted by maG @ 11:54 PM
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