tired..both phyiscally & emotionally
tiring daytutorials all the way
sian...
fell asleep in maths tutorial
just couldn't take it le
head was aching like mad too
flat out just slept
really think
that there's something wrong
with my head
headaches coming too frequently
eye also quite red the whole day
hmmm...
by the end of lessons
was drained
den things had to come up
frustration added upon fatique
became too much
i'm sorry
i noe i said things too
got frustrated too
i noe
that i shouldn't have off my phone
but
at that point of time
i think enough was said
i didn't wan to say more
cuz
i dun wan to sae things
that i will regret later
went running
with mel.amanda.choo
put my mind off things
talked to franz n jackson
ran a little more
we hung arnd the grand stand
for a while
it seems
that
i like to go there
just to stare out
to the field
went tm
ate
and walked arnd a little
real glad that i had the ppl arnd me
amanda bought drinks
ya
it felt good
went home
n cooked dinner
ya...i can cook...
i'm tired
really
not enough slp
plus not sleeping well
maybe
the headaches are warnings
i want to slp
and maybe
not wake up until it suits me
which will be a long period of time
everyone has difficulties
i noe
but seriously
dun say things
that u can't be sure u can do
am i really
that difficult to talk to
that unreasonable?
that u can't tell me ur difficulties
problems upon problems upon problems
they are compounding each other
becoming harder and harder to solve
i starting to wonder
who am i now
i'm changing
into someone
i barely noe
i'm giving
too much
into this
the feelings in me now
are just one big mess
in turmoil with one another
i'm losing myself
too fast
lost inside..
the light
has gone out in my life
i'm just getting by
day by day
bruised and hurt
too many times
i no longer
allow myself to trust in it
anymore
and from wat i see
it was really me
who thought too much
into it
and allowed myself to hope
like glass
it's breaking
again..
tired n drained
it's as if
i wrung dry on the inside
God
give me the strength
to go on
and face this truth
wat's on the surface
may not be wad
it really is below
sumtimes
it's just easier
to put on a mask
but sumhow
i still can't help
but miss u
posted by maG @ 11:58 PM
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