all the wrong n dumb things i've done
back from camphaix...
tons n tons of things happened
many many unhappy things
i was dumb
if the camp didn't go well
which is most prob wat everyones thinks
i guess i have to bear part of the blame
everything went wrong
maybe this was really the worst it ever went
i really cannot take it much more
i was never meant to do such stuff
tried so hard
but it still dosen't work out
or get any better
woke up early
went to tm to get stuff for games alone
called dr lee to see if he was coming
but he wun be
cuz he's still really sick
pls take care
bought the stuff den went to school
surprisingly
at 10 am
there was already alot of ppl in the bandroom
yup...
had breakfast outside with amanda
den had morning combine pract
taken by sc
was really glad
cuz the number of ppl late was so much less
lunch break
didn't eat
haix....
dr lee cun make it for the whole day
had a discussion on the schedule abt the rest of the day
haix...
i dunno
sumtimes it's better to think it out more throughly
after lunch
had sectionals
but i didn't go
cuz was planning for night walk
i noe
it's real last min
haix...
spent most of the time with amanda daph kai xiang n kian hong
coming up with ideas n places
haix..
there's so many things we want to do
but can't cuz we dun haf the manpower
we made do
finally settled on the places
we ran throught the route once
in daylight
but the first place we went
we freaked out
haha
dumb
was planning was to do n stuff
den a door slammed n the hand dryer turned on
and we screamed n ran out
haha
funny cuz
kian hong just sai we shuld write owe money pay money on the mirror
den all the things happened
haha
damn shocked la
haha
yup
ran through the route
decided wad to do
den we went back for band combine
everything went downhill frm there
was already tired n not feeling well
haix...
there's alwaes a time n place for things
but i didn't think tt was the time to
i dunno
why choose the time
where it's most obvious tt u're not there to be not there?
maybe i was over reacting
but serious
u still haf the say to say such things can bedone later
haix...
combine until 5
'when u say sumthing, stick to it
no matter wat happens'
tt's wad u told me to do
so when u said u wanted to do that
why didnt u follow through
i noe i shoudn't haf went off
i noe it was not rite
but being in tt mood that i was
i can't haf done the games n expect it to work
when i was in such a mood
why is it
when i didn't noe how to do it or handle things
i still tried to
when u didn't to want/feel like doing things i did it..somewhat alone
games..yes it can be hard to conduct but there's alwaes ppl to help u
when sumthings is said
it has to done
when i needed to turn to someone
i couldn't find anyone there
called mel
talked n talked
felt so damn horrible
at tt point of time
i really couldn't care anymore
but sumwhere in me
i still could not not care
haix..
ppl who tired to call
i didn't pick up
haix...
i felt so damn useless
i dun understand why i was picked
cuz i dun think i haf it in me
look wat was done so far
everything went wrong sumhow
haix...
thanks mel
for listeningeven if u didn't really noe wad was going on
maybe i needed someone who didn't noe anything
haix...
talked for a longwhile
thanks to those ppl that were there for me
especially daphne
went back
feeling much better n in better control of myself
but
one decision made
can change alot of things
tt's why they haf to be made carefully
there were reasons why i said we should not allow tt
haix..
nvm
me n daph
went out to get stuff for nightwalk
and had dinner
went round getting all the things
and the cake
i'm so broke now
really so broke
haix...
went back
and started filling water bombs
just me n daph
grace came a while later
and helped out
den more ppl camemuch later
joce.farhan.yanleng
i did a while more
den went off with kai xiang to prepare the nightwalk
went round all the places
setting up the things n clues
hands were all red frm all the painting
and so tiring to do all the stuff
it was getting darker le
the games were to start at 8
but it didn't
cuz most of the ppl weren't back
me n kaixiang continued doingn doing
erm
had a freaky experience with the light
hmm...
shan't sae le
when it was almost done
we went back to the wet games
it was already very late
but the 2nd game haf not started
so i tried to help out
but
everything went absolutely wrong
pissed to the max
went up
came to conclusions n just snapped
maybe i came to conclusion too fast
did a stupid thing
seen by the wrong ppl
but i really already couldn't care at tt point
too much was just too much
tt was the one thing
i thot would go most well
cuz we did the exact thing b4
maybe circumstances were diff
i snapped
at tt point
i wanted to leave
n not come back
thanks daph
who was there all the way
if i was rude or ignored ppl
i'm sorry
continued on for the night walk
went to light candles
argh
really tio shock by kiongwee kenneth n kwang liang
were at the pathway to the gal's toliet at the stadium there
den they were at the grandstand
they heard us den they made gohstly noises
and the three of us
daph.kaixiang n me
freaked out and screamed like mad
like thanks
after we were done
went to start
went to the staium there to be station master
haix...
damn tired
broke down
i'm really useless
n weak
haix...
sitting there
giving up was a tempting choice
nightwalk started
ppl came
the guys decided to scare ppl
so they went into the toliets in wait
i had to go open gate for amanda n rach
went to grandstand area
talked summore
the guys were real good at scaring ppl
i kept having to open gate for ppl
after quite a while
the game kinda wound down
went to open gate many many times
for ppl to go out n in
after i opened for yanleng
went to blow out candles and clear
with grace n rach
den was i was walking bac to grandstand
phone reang again
open gate again
was so tired
tt when waiting for woan rong to come
the three of us just laid down on the road in front of the gate
looked at stars
i think the ppl that went past thot we were mad la
too tired to care
it was really late le
like 1 plus maybe
after tt
we went back to grandstand
went up to bandroom
went to bathe?
ya i think we did
hmm..
got the guys to go with us
thanks
nice bath
heh
after tt
we got out the cake
n celebrated all the march babies bdae
kianhong.mr lim.grace.desmond.yanleng but she went home le
yup
cut cake n stuff
slacked outside the lt1
haha
i got mr lim to allow us to on air com in lt
went to watch stuff
wanted to go out to macs
finally got everyone moving
oh ya
saw some weird n funnie clip
went out to tmart
at like 2 plus in the morn?
mad
there were like 8 guys n 5 gals i think
walked the long way there
had ice cream!!
whoots
ok the gals went mad
had a lot of fun with the multi shot on rach phone
with me taking the pics
daph n amanda as the main characters
and rach n grace our viewers
haha
lame
den all the weird things we were saying
like no link
and super cold jokes
yup
went quite mad there
hmmm...
finally went off
after buying stuff for ppl
on the way back
grace was so tired she could haf collasped la
was like supporting her with rach
yup
went back
wanted to watch saw 2
but they couldn't open it
wasted a lot of time trying to figure it out
they were watching alot was crap stuff
was nodding off le
glad i brought xiao dong xi
we were all feeding mozzies
leg was taolly covered by bites
oh yah
rashes too
dies
a lot of ppl started sleeping in the lt
cuz they weren't watching a movie
finally
they watched troy
heh
i like..
tt was already 5 i think
watched until 550 plus
deni went to off aircon
wathced summore
den went off alone to clear more of the nightwalk stuff
came back
and caught the end of the movie
hmm...
had a small prob with the air con
thanks sujin for helping me
yup
den was sitting outside a while
b4 going off to clean the last toliet
yup
came back to band room arnd 7 plus
ppl started leaving le
yup
we were sleeping on one of the tables outside
hugging my bear
we all slept
but i kinda kept waking up when ppl left
and for no reason
hmm..
woke up arnd 8 plus
but still sat there
tonglong came arnd 830?
haha
he was like having a fun time looking at the slping ppl
sat with us
and ate his brakfast
amanda was high
haha
daph woke up soon
heh
thistime much easier to wake her up
haha
not like last time
like a log
haha
yup
den daph went high
everyone siao la
alumni were coming le
but we mostly just sat there n talked n listen music
until arnd 10 plus
had fun trying to use woan rong's phone
took pics of piglet
cute
yup
soon
arnd1030?
went in to pack our stuff
leaving le
yup
waited outside for everyone
saw shufen
haha
finally we left
decided to cab home with amanda
broke to the max
haix...
can stop using cash le
haha
reached home arnd 11 plus
they just got up not long i think
bathed
den went to slp arnd 12?
mum was so sweet
on aircon for me to sleep
yup
i knocked out sia
when mum woke me up
it was nearing 8 at nite
heh
funnie
had dinner of sorts
hmm...
i noticed tt
i have a lot of small cuts
all of which i didn't notice until now
some hurt
haha
hecks
tired
drained
i'm off to do work
-feel my pain-
posted by maG @ 10:57 PM
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