up n downs
the day started ok la...had lect early in the morn
barely kept awake during the bio lect
haix..
mag..u got to stop doing this ya?
oh yah...canteen change caterer..
nth much to sae..
went to visit ppl in orientation
me n mummy went round tha hall a few times la
joined in for a few cheers
funny la
mummy was checking out the cohord
meeting with dear ms khoo
hung arnd sum more in the hall
den sent mummy,amnda & egg off
went band room
totally tired la
K.O
practically "blacked out" for an hr plus
the noise didn't affect me much
haix...
signs that i need rest
but..there's things to be done
got a call frm amanda
got the shock of my life
totally brightened up my day!!
she got me my b day present!!!
i love it!!
really
thanks tons ya??
did idiotic things like carrying the huge bear to the hall
but yup
i like it lots ya?
thanks a mil!!
at that moment..
that darkness that surrounded me
lightened
just for a while
went back to band room
den went to find teachers
ended up talking
headache
haix
den put up posters
walked round the sch
went back to do stuff
i've got ink stained hands to show for the work i did
stayed till quite late?
6 plus
went home with amanda
feeling useless..
unable to help
seem to only say things that dun help
all i can say
is that we are all facing diff probs
but i will to be there
even if its just to stand there
take care
n dun give up
it will get better i hope
i dunno wat to do anymore
i can't advoid it
but i can't make myself pretend nothing's wrong
i just can't
act normal tt's wad they sae
but i can't
i dunno
the cheery cover drains me more then anything
the ignoring hurts me more den i noe
i just can't pretend nth's wrong
cuz
at least to me
sumthing happened
i dunno wad it means to others
but to me it happened
haix
how am i to continue this facade?
i dunno
there but not truely there
give it time
i'm sure it will pass
leaving a gaping hole
but
i'll get through
going to stop bothering ppl with this matter
leaving it to heal on it's own
mag...it time u learn to lock it up n just throw away the key
n dun try finding the key until it's time
it wun be soon
so just do it
and maybe
it will stop hurting
i noe it's wad i must do
but
will i be able to?
haix
things to be done
1. collect my pay
2. get the things!
3. sleep more
4. study
amanda y : thanks thanks thanks thanks =D
mel : i miss having u arnd...why be ogl.. haha
franz: u idiot! scare me....
amanda t : jia you...
memories everywhere i go
making it even harder to let go
u ask why
i wonder why u wan to noe
will u tell me why u ask?
posted by maG @ 11:50 PM
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