Monday, December 26, 2005

last min frenzy

rites....wonderful....i lost my voice....

will be leaving in a few hours time
hope i dun forget to bring anything
hope it will be fun
hope tt everything will go well

madness..

mum driving me mad with the last min stuff...
-.-

night + rain = depressing thots
explains the last post ya?

i am already starting to miss ppl
my frens...
spent the whole hols with them
den now
wun be able to see them for a week plus
hmmmm.... sad

first time i'm spending the start of a new year overseas
hmmm.... wonder how it will be like

not that u all will see this but...
jia you ppl!! for the concert...
u all can do it ya?
haf fun....n enjoy it... =D

amanda: jia you!! stay strong ya?
joce: dun worry u can do it de...trust in urself cuz i trust in u ya?
class ppl: i miss u all already!
band ppl: jia you!!

= new year..new beginning=
i hope

confused

my head hurts...but i noe i can't sleep...
not now...
i'm leaving soon....
later in the nite...
off to korea but why do i not feel excited?
i noe i will be there..
but will my whole body n soul be there with me?

i dunno how i feel...since dunno when
but who can i blame accept myself..
for falling blindly into it
that black gapping hole
although i got so damn many warnings frm everyone
to be careful
not to fall in
cuz if i do...i wun be able to climb out
so true

there is a miscommucation btw the body n soul
cuz one saes to forget n get on with life
but the other aches with the memories
what am i to do?

i keep telling myself that time will erase it all
but will it really?
it keeps flashing back to me
stuff that happened
i can't forget
i can't even put it aside now
cuz it keeps coming back

it hurts..
but who can understand..
i guess no one
cus i myself dun
it just hurts n hurts n hurts
when will it stop

i feel like asking
but i dun dare
coward

almost there... means memories..
memories can bring both pain n joy
i dunno wad i'm feeling now

i wanna scream..
n cry..
n laugh..
as long as it gets out of me..

but sumhow
i treasure those memories
at least it was sumthing
at least it was to me..

how am i to answer when its all abt u??
everyone fears sumthing
i fear rejection

Sunday, December 25, 2005

my christmas

christmas is supposed to be spent celebrating rite?... i spent it at home... worst still... sick

one year is coming to an end already.... sumhow i can still remember how i spent last christmas..
memories dat came back after a while...
haix....feeling a little depressed this christmas...
missing stuff.... i really miss those days that things were diff at least they were to me
this month was packed full of things...frm the every beginning...
band camp..band chalet..band fest..preparation for concert
but sumhow...at least to me..
though being very busy n stressed..
sum things manage to worm its way rite into the heart and refused to leave

thanks for making this month and the year the way it is..
frens and family
n i guess..u

spent the day in bed.. trying to sleep... but most of the time.. thinking..
of many things and ppl

its a new year ahead... a new beginning... a new start?

let's hope everything works out fine.. for me... n for everyone

浪漫手机

轻轻放
我就是卸不下对你的喜欢
原来爱会慢慢增加重量
想关上这城市所有的灯光
黑暗中专心闻你的发香
这夜晚让(两个人有话冰感)
回想
与你约会过的地方
有舍不得的伤
在脑海里储存欣赏
你微笑浏览.手机里的浪漫
原来真心终究还是这么简单
温馨影幕上
你可爱的模样
关于缘分的解释我又多传了一行
你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来爱情可以来得这么突然
当新的较量
就好比情拉长
我们的感情蔓延珍藏拥吻着飞扬-…
在雪里土壤
电池长
嘈杂的情歌还在拼命播放
我安静在那(却都没点印象)
有一些话到老了(都不敢传)
她说她信息等你在(回难)
简单说……人潮冲动我的孤单
想象……(信息一定都陪在你身旁)
却不会吟唱
你也在等你手机响……
你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来真心终究还是这么简单
温馨影幕上
你可爱的模样
关于缘分的解释
我又多传了一行
你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来爱情可以来得这么突然
当新的较量
就好比情拉长
我们的感情蔓延珍藏拥吻着飞扬-…
在雪里土壤

how very true...

dreams

ok...getting sms-es wishing me merry christmas...ya...i realli wish it will be merry...considering everything la....
'hope all ur dreams come true' another frequently said thing....
how i really really wish that mine do.... but it seems that it is way out of my reach
rather depressing really...

-trying to face reality-

merry christmas?!

ahem ahem......testing testing......

merry christmas! ok...weird... first post.....

got the blog on impulse...but wat's done done...

crapping...

merry christmas everyone.....spend it with ur loved ones ya??