Sunday, July 30, 2006

its over

musical synergy
my batch's last concert
last day as a tpjc band member
an eventful last day

went to school a little early
sat outside doing things
hmmm..
den there was this mad dash to move instru down
and clearing out to the bus

picture taking starts in the bus
hmmm...
reached vch
unpacked
and soon warming up
got onto stage arnd 1130
went through songs

next up
lunch
same caterer as panorama
but diff food
haha
much to the relief of many
lynn's brownies!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yummy!!!!!!!!!
*muacks*
lynn rocks

had a technical dry run
den had free time
slacking arnd at the back of the hall
laughing like mad
fun
haha
hmmm...
lots of problem with the chairs
madness
so many changes
so many screw ups..
i think ms wong super stressed by it la
yep
nothing much
den dinner
changing time
baically got ready
photo session contiues

soon
it was time to get ready
got into our lines and up on stage arnd 7.15
tuning
waited
nervous

merry widow
congrats to grace!!
good job!!

a movement for rosa
congrats to chong hui!!
great job
congrats to all solosist too!!!
good job everyone

rushed off the stage
hmmm
did the prezzie things
den photo taking again!!!
haha
slacked arnd until intermission
saw many ppl!!
jy.amanda.enghan.hongrui?
yep
thanks to everyone who came
girlfriend woan rong came too
miss her tons
saw shufen too
hmmm...
many ppl in back stage
saw changyu
heh
all too soon
had to start going up again
dies
couldn't find my file
like shit shit shit
lucky daniel could share with alan
was damn freaking frightened for the second half
el capitan sounded quite ok
den next
toccata marziale
dr lee came to us when the emcees were talking
just one word
watch
freaking scared
fingers were shivering
i think it went well
lastly
japanese tune
and that was it
so fast
we were off the stage again
pictures!!!
yes lots n lots
talked to dr lee
pictures
den the concert soon came to a close
prize presentation
went on stage
erm yes
i think mel n ppl scream my name
thanks
presented to dr lee
think he's a little over loaded my the gifts
yep
after all the presentation
everyone went up
pics as an entire grp n the guest of honor
den they presented dr lee with the bling bling damn fun
haha
more pics
den dr lee became the centre of attention
with him and all his gifts
he posed for super long
=)
talked to him
den my sis
said hi to many
hmmm...
cleared off stage
pack up
mel n choo came looking for me
*muacks*
emo...
hais...
clearing out was a horror
run like mad
hais....
finally out
den loading of bus n lorry
lorry took super long
finally got on bus n went off
on the bus
was quiet
although the ppl arnd were super high
singing all their parts
with only chonghui singing the counter melody
haha
reached school
unpacked
moving of instru
back in band room
de brief
tears came
thanks lynn for being there
hais
last time
really is the last le
i miss the batch
i miss the times
i just miss lots of things
and most of all
i miss being under dr lee
hais
cleared out
still the last to leave
waited for shutter to be closed
den took mr lim's car to the in gate
although short ride
super high
decided to buy 4d
on his car plate no
haha
wanted to go eat
but was too tired n late
so went home
took cab
home sweet home

i miss band
now days without band will be so empty
still waiting to know wad happens now
i really hope the school can change it's decision

i'll miss lots of things
it will forever be part of me

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

now its down to hours....

reached school on the dot
mel and clarie were glad
haha
1st 2 periods was break
went canteen
hmmm...
clarie a bit bu shuang sumthing...
yep...
studied outside band room area
or at least tried la
but there was lots of talking n gossiping
lynn came over
notty e.t. just reach school n pon maths lesson
haha
=p
studied a little
yep
went off for pe
but dumb me forgot to bring attire
yeahness
hais...
played badminton
lesson learnt
do not play with dabora
cuz she's super pro
and its super tiring playing individual match..
haha
anyway
had lots of fun
class new fave sport
badminton!!
yep
after being chased out of the courts
we hung arnd
since we were already super late for lect
crapped
haha
good laughs abt the jinxed mat
hmmm...
went off to canteen
ate
sheesh
kena bullied la
played zhong ji mi ma
den tio
argh...
vinegar.curry.soup.fruit juice.steamed egg
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks
franz fed me with relish la
yucks
den they started to add more things
like apple juice
but lucky stop playing le
haha
s04 ain't called the noise producers for nothing k?
=)
for the first time
went for maths tut early la
sat in the class and talked lots
hmmmm...
maths was ok...
went off for maths lect
i think its one of the few times tt i sat on the left side
weird feeling leh
hmmm...
after maths chem tut
sleepy...
gp teacher didn't come
had work
but didn't feel like doing
abandoned by choo n amanda by the end of lesson
hais..
waited for the rest of the class to be dismissed
chem tut again
fell asleep somehow
hais...
let off
went canteen to get waffles
yums
band...
in audi
technical run through first
den the actual thing
hais...
ppl
just 2 days more to concert
put ur everything into the music k?
jia you
we all can do it
yes...
jia you ppl
dinner break
felt so empty inside
suffering frm headache
hais...
dunno la
mood went down the drain
hais...
talked to dr lee outside the bandroom
yep...
combine
den dismissal
jia you everyone!!
yes i noe
i haf dulan face
but its just me la
dun think too much abt it
cuz when i'm not happy
its really much more obvious
rain
walked out of school to bus stop
wet...
hais...
too tired to care le ba?
took 12
change train
went home
i'm too tired to do work now
shall do during breaks tml
yep...

dumb dumb mag.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

the final days..

i woke up early
but i went back to sleep
so i ended up late
hais...
sry mel
couldn't come early today
so i missed the assembly in the hall
dear mel n ppl waited for me at canteen
b4 we all headed up to the classroom
settled down
hmmm...
slacked for the civis periods
talking to clarie n mel
figuring out their gp things
reading abt the new south wales uni
yep
its a cloudy day
talked lots
with franz.mel n clarie...
hmmmm...
chem was eeeeeeeee...
haha
had organic test
gosh
haven revise yet
hmmm...
i guess i need to buck up
hmmm...
bio tut
was ok la
went through the questions
break
ate
hmmm...
maths tut
slept through it
damn super tired
and dun get it
hais...
choo tried to keep me awake
didn't really help
hais...
so yep
that was maths
left the place to another classroom
was stoned
super sianed
chem was ok la...
released
went for maths
did ap gp...
argh...
so long nv do le...
forgot everything le can
hais....
sat there n tried to do
hmmmm...
distracted
by the heat n the noise
hais...
we ended early today
cuz mr chow got meeting
so finished doing den went off to eat
oh yes
mel went mad
laughing non stop
due to a certain e.t. we met along the way
so hilarious to see the 2 of them stare at each other
den burst out laughing uncontrollably
haha...
packed up and left arnd 3
jason came to meet choo
hmmm...
bb tea n prata
haha
=)
dunno la
talked lots
after eating n crapping
went back to school
sent mel off
went up le
was sitting at the benches outside the bandroom
hmmm
talked
amanda.joce.farhan.daph.kaixin.xin ni.yanleng.nat
hmmm
band prac
hmmm
lots more areas to improve ppl!!
we can do it!!
jia you jia you!!
=)
band ended arnd 7pm
hung arnd for a while to pay tics n stuff
hmmm...
den went outside band room to talk to lynn
=)
she's funnie today
laugh non stop at the slightest things
e.t. is just so cute la
yeps
took bus to tm
amanda got bb tea
bought a little food
hmmm...
off to interchange
bread aglore
haha
=P
took 31
den change mrt
walked home
surprisingly
family haf not eaten yet
yep
mum made some pastry thingys that were nice
argh...
miss baking...
=(
hais...
i'm really quite sad tt some ppl can't come the concert la
all due to circumstances...
but argh...
can can!!mel!!
=(
nvm ba
tough luck...
hais...
i'm going a little mad le
hais...
with all the doubt i'm getting
i'm starting to wonder
but it does nothing to think abt all these stuff
so i shall try not to
and just stick to wad i haf been saying..
mag shall not think too much
mag shall try not to think too much
mag shall try real hard not to think too much
argh...
madness...

sheesh
i hate being broke...
hais...

headache day

i rushed to school
and got into school at the nick of time
let's hope can keep this up
spe
argh...
nth much
still not getting tennis
but quite fun
hmmm...
after tt
went for bio lect
hais...
more terms to study
my poor head
argh....
chem was in the audi
teacher sped along
and ended up with lots of time to spare
funnie
so ended up letting us off early
yayness
went to canteen
didn't eat much
slack
hmmm...
bio tut
ms nora super tired
she also sian sian
went through the tys
den let us off early
tt's the end of lessons le
went off to tm
pauline.clarie.daph.jieying.mel.feng.ber.elvin.reagan
most had lunch at ljs
some at food court
talked
ate
saw tonglong n band ppl
yep
after eating finish
me.mel,clarie dunno doing wad
made a fool of ourselves
haha
den went to find them at food court
PLAYGROUND
=P
we went absolutely mad there
yes yes
this whole bunch of jc students playing in the playground
no childhood
we were screaming like mad
cuz played on this thing that just turns non stop
faster n faster
the world went mad when u are on it la
haha
fun fun
did lots of things la
today is the day
ber flew
accident den she "flew" frm on place to another la
kena bumped by reagan super hard
abrasions
hmmmm...
stpped playing after everyone was tired
oh yes
we attracted ALOT of ppls' attention
from the neighbouring places
hecks la
hmmmm...
a few felt sick afterall tt playing
cuz not only were we in the hot afternoon sun
we were spinning arnd like a top
madness
sent the grp of them off
sea sports carnival
went back to school with daph
startings of a headache
sectionals
saw shufen
hmmm...
nat n daph bully me!!
ppl blur can??
bleh
hais...
mr lim is back
yep
talked a bit
went in for combine
headache getting worst
hais....
as combine went on
headache became worst
when try to concentrate
will start to tear
hais....
worst thing
no panadol
argh....
dies
was really going crazy frm the pain
hais...
after we finished merry widow
started on rosa
couldn't take it le
went out to rest
dies
my gosh the pain....
after a brief respite outside which did not bring relief
went back
great big thanks to boonhwee who dunno frm where got panadol!!
thanks thanks thanks thanks
hais....
headache heaache
i'm falling sick
hais....
prac ended soon after
head hurts bad
sorry if i ignored ppl
just wanted to rest
hais...
yep...
chased out of the place
went off
hais...
did i ever sae i can't stand fake ppl?
i hate them!!
dun talk abt respect when u dun show it in the first place
slaps
hais...
went to side gate bus stop
took 12
rotted
went pp
ate a little
talked alot
sent amanda home
talked n talked
hmmmm...
took 15
walked home
was on the phone with mel
exciting day ba?
yeps...
tired
cranky
hais..
it seems like lots of ppl can't go my concert...
sad...
can can.mel.choo.....
argh....
sad la
hais...
milk + coffee wine = nice
yums
sumtimes its good to do dumb stuff...
yep...
i'm a dumb dumb

Sunday, July 23, 2006

sweet

yet another song i like....

haha...

this song reminds me of lots of things...

heh

gosh... so blind

yay
mag slept in
woke up arnd 11
lazed arnd a bit
had lunch
was clearing stuff frm my cardboard
saw my last yr's diary
out of boredom
started to read through
hmmm...
relived bits n pieces of my life last yr
gosh...
one year has passed so fast
hmmm...
so many up n downs
new frens..
new experiences
fun and more fun
and i guess
sumwhere along the way
i've known a long time ago
but was just blinded the superfacial stuff
and trying to bluff my way through
hmmmm...
too bad
its too late
dealing with the present now
after reading a bit
i put it aside
triedto do work
tried
hais
weather was driving me mad
cannot concentrate...
so back to reading my diary
hais...
subtle yet obvious
dies
haha...
think i'm going mad
so
i didn't do much today
so screwed
hais...
had dinner
surf net
hais...
wasting precious time
but i can't bear to do anything else now
hais...




i remb when we played this in tkgssb
i fell in love with it a long time ago
when watching the jap drama
heard it yest...
hais...
i think i'm thinking too much
hais...
ps: amanda i noe u like it too!!!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

tired

had a busy day!!
i really wanted to sleep in
but i didn't
woke up early
to do wad?
go running
haha
met choo at her hse bus stop
den went to bedok reservoir!
nice nice nice
damn cooling
although in hot sun
ran for a while
den continued to walk the entire route
haha
crazy ba?
talked abt alot of stuff
hmmm...
after completing the entire route
went off
got bb tea
sat in the sun n talk la
yes
mad le
took bus back
came home n stoned la
haha
had subway for lunch
yums
made a card
gosh
artistic skills sucks
haha
too bad
was running late to meet amanda
rush rush rush
hais
hate crowded buses
hate crowded places
i just hate crowds la
bought things frm mini toons
den took 15 to tamp
irritating ppl on the bus
bish
stare wad stare sia
rotted all the way to tamp
was super late in meeting amanda y n mel
at cs foodcourt again
faints
saw tonglong n jia hui there too
hmmm...
dinner
jieying n pauline came
rushed to school
why must the school lock the side gate??
so dumb la
had to chiong all the way to the front gate
hais..
CO concert
didn't get good seats
but lucky got there b4 they started
nice performance!!
haha
sadly
missed the drum ensemble
gosh so damn dumb
but nvm
we got to talk to ah pok
who REALLY looked like mr bean
haha
intermission
changed seats
better ba
hmmm...
went to meet franz
who was outside la
talked a bit
changyu came over too
haha
funny
went back
2 half alot of section performance
nice nice
=)
got soe outside ppl as guest
haha
cool
last two pieces den combine again
songs are nice!!
yep
haha
concert ended
i guess the ppl went mad on stage
spraying and popping things
went to the front
talked to franz n stella
and JAMES!!!
after almost a year half of not seeing him
he never change
haha
funny
dunno wad we did la
was baiscally talking to franz there
hung arnd till after they debrief
hmmm...
took grp pic
franz.jieying.pauline.daph.amanda t.amanda y.choo.mel.me
yep
fun fun
den they went mad with the bass
haha
hung arnd a while more
den went off to tm
starbucks!!!
after so long of notgoing there
haha
lucky us
got tables straight away
=)
got drinks n food
stayed only a while
everyone wanted to catch the last bus
haha
while heading back
the grp of us saw franz.stella.james
complained to them la!!!
haha
took train
amanda.daph.me
got off
sweet amanda
dropped me off first
b4 heading home
haha
tired
tml can finally sleep in
i hope
need to do tons of things
hais...

exactly one week
hais...

feelings clog up my very soul
hais...

Friday, July 21, 2006

grey

late for school most of the week again
hais..
dunno why
dun really wanna care le la
i'll try to reach earlier next week
gp tut early in the morn
presentations
sleepy
after tt ended
had break
ate
saw mrs neo..
hais
went in real late for maths lect
one of the few times tt i sat in the middle block...
was listening to podcast
of zheng my car?
funnie!!!!!!!!!!!
chem tut
hais...
boring
bio lect
died in it
bio tut
for 2 periods
froze to death
hais...
after tt
went straight to do gp compre
brain drain
so difficult to do
had to finish the paper b4 can leave
so came late for band..
was already combine
rosa
den jap tune
went out n find dr lee
combine
ppl!!
jia you!!
yep
combine ended arnd 7 plus?
settled things
but got sianed
talked a little
went off
left my bottle in the band room
SAD!!
hais...
dinner at cs food court
dr lee.alan.jia hui.samantha.asyraf.hweeling.grace.amanda
stoned at the end
walked arnd tm for a while
took 31 to bedok
den mrt
walked
thought alot
tired
in serious need of sleep
hais...
going running tml
bedok reservoir...
yay...
CO concert tml too...
busy day...
so tired
so dead
i'm screwed up la...
hais...



life is so grey...
tired.confused.messed up.stressed
hais...
if i could just sort out my thots...
hais...

Thursday, July 20, 2006

pain... pure n simple

it hurt so bad
to hear wad was said
so god damned bad
second time in my entire life
tears threatened in a public place
shattered
hais...
the days passed in a blur
hais...
thots fly through the mind
but i can't make much of all of it
the sense of uselessness
and absolute failure permits my soul
right to the every core
but its all too late
it seems that nothing can be done
a big big big mess
guilt clings on to me...
it impossible to shake off
nailed into my soul
failure
all my doing...
wad a failure i haf been
hais...

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

sian day

yipee for mag!!
early for school today!!!
=)
heh...
assembly in hall
den after a horribly funny skid
C I M E O
haha
got a few of us hooked on it
yes
we were doing dumb stuff
like we alwaes do
haha
civis!!
photo taking
class pic!!!
=)
mr tan has declared my class to be
the most bimbotic class
haha
pls lo
he himself also bimbo can?
just for the class pic he went to cut his hair
haha
got to wear the school tie
yay
i tied it myself
haha
and it looked alright k?
haha
picture takingwas damn fun
yes
cuz we didn't only take formal ones la
tons more
guys pic
den whole lot of gals ones too
guys act cool
haha
love the class la
=)
anyway
mr tan came to the conclusion that
he can only get full attendance on time when there is photo taking
haha
all too soon
civis came to an end
lessons started
hais...
tutorial day
sian until...
being in the same stuffy classroom the entire day did not help
hais...
totally sian ed
weather was hot too
hais...
but
i didn't fall asleep in any lesson k
after all lessons
went to eat?
ya
running arnd
hais...
maths remedial
moved into a classroom in e block
cuz they having listening in b block
still not good at this topic
practise!!
hmmm..
lesson dragged on till 5 plus?
mel n the rest went out to eat
stayed in school to study
met up with mel to take bus together
den met up with amanda
who was tramatized by jy.daph and amanda y
haha
tt's my class for u
was totally tired
not feeling too good
took 15 home
dinner
going to do work soon..
deep inside...i'm fucking hurt
hais...
i'm washing my hands off u
u can go do wadever u like
dun wanna care le
since u dun wan ppl to care anyway

Monday, July 17, 2006

the great count down

late for school AGAIN!!
argh...
forgot to take ezlink back frm sis..
ended up late
hais...
cwo here i come...
bleh...
spe
fun?
tennis...
hmmmm...
got whack right on my left cheek by the tennis ball
damn bloody pain
really pain until...
couldn't open the eye for a while
cuz so near the eye ma
mel ar...
laugh n laugh n laugh...
thanks gal...
haha..
i gez i should be glad it didn't hit the eye ba?
man..
it still hurts a bit now...
bio lect next
sian...
dun get wad was said
cuz never really listened b4 that
chem lect...
cold...
break
was spent near the booth where they selling friendship cards
man
i wish i haf cash
some are just so nice...
=(
nvm...
bio tut
ms nora noticed we were all low
and it affected her too..
break...
ate..
double gp
could have died
i was falling asleep
hais...
when waited for tha class to come for maths tut
the 3 of us fell asleep on the tables
woke up and tio shock
cuz franz move n sat beside me and i didn't noe...
maths...
dies...
dun get it..
happy to be released
stayed with ber amanda daph for a while
b4 left
to band room
sent mel off
den studied outside band room
tonglong n grace came
studied a little
den more ppl came n talk...
dr lee came early..
and he bloody strangled me with lynn's soft toy!!!
pain!!!
like really la...
argh...
band
combine...
bang bang
hais...
it seems that julian wants to come back n play too..
hmmm...
so many ppl all of a sudden
ended early
things happened
mood low
mel...
i'll be there for u...
no matter wad
cuz u are alwaes there for me...
love u tons..
=)
dinner
with franz n amanda
subway
cookies!!
i miss baking...
=(
soon ba?..
home
tml taking class pic...
=X
i haf to get to school on time!!
argh..
no more late coming mag...

daph khoo!!!..
miss u tons la...
finally back in school... can't wait for u to come back band

Musical Synergy
29th july 2006
band cum guitar concert
victoria concert hall
tics anyone?? just contact me k??
=)





yes... thanks you...

Sunday, July 16, 2006

silence

i need silence..
the peace
i dun seem to find it here
that's why i rather be out
why is it alwaes me that gets the brunt of the anger?
when i didn't do anything to cause it?
same things rehashed again
in ur fit of anger
u just throw everything at me
hais..
was so tired today
slept alot
drained
hais...
totally sianed when was out for dinner
but great big thanks to ppl who cheered me up through sms
and help me get through the black mood
hais...
now i really noe wad faith u all haf in me
like thanks
i noe my results are not good
but did u haf to put me down so low?
i would haf thot u would not sae such things
it hurts u noe?
yes
compared to the two of u
i'm dumb
dun need to rub it in le
thanks
i'm not blind k?
i noe the diff btw ur resluts n mine
i dun need this
how come i find more encouragement n faith frm frens
den frm my OWN family?
i dunno
dun fucking care to noe why
hais...
i hate my life

national day parade preveiw 08.07.2006















the gals.... in suntec....cool background huh?!
















franz.mel.me... in front of the fish tanks!!...




















thinking of wad to eat.....





















amanda n her fave man!!!




mel n me in the cab to stadium....

the big vs the small... hehe....

choo n me.... suffering in hot sun...


mel !!!... flag's the other way round dear gal... Posted by Picasa


arfter many tries.... the best pic of all of us.... =) Posted by Picasa


NDP 2006... the choir... in the hot sun... Posted by Picasa


sunset...  Posted by Picasa


beautiful clouds... yes yes... i was bored... Posted by Picasa


my darling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD Posted by Picasa


nice nice nice.... Posted by Picasa


dropping from the sky!!!... Posted by Picasa


the last one.... the coolest!!!... Posted by Picasa


sunset.... i'll miss the stadium... Posted by Picasa


flags!!!!!!.... Posted by Picasa


mannie's emo pic!!! Posted by Picasa


=D Posted by Picasa


parade!!.... haha.... Posted by Picasa


so majestic la... Posted by Picasa


picture of the screen form my seat... Posted by Picasa


i find it very cool.... heh... =D Posted by Picasa


up into the dark sky.... so beautiful yet so fleeting... Posted by Picasa


i haf no idea wat is this.... but it looks damn nice.... haha Posted by Picasa


me n amanda!!! nearing end of show....  Posted by Picasa


lights n smoke.... cool.... =) Posted by Picasa


fireworks!!!.... whoots!!! Posted by Picasa