Saturday, September 30, 2006

thoughts

on a dark n gloomy day
time passes without notice
thots enters the mind
and lingers
many unwelcomed
but does it matter?
conclusion has been reached
sticking to it is another obstacle
unspoken emotions

u remind me of me in this song..
...you were never mine...

rain rain rain

hais
woke up to a hazy day
really hazy
and got caught in the rain after lunch
was running in the rain
like kids can
me n bro
spent the entire of yest afternoon till night
at airport
t 2
quite ok la
studied quite alot
last stretch le
pia all the way le
yep
go s04 go!!!
yep
went home real late
k.oed
hmmm...
mugging time...
=/
big thanks to dear mel
for the ice cream!!
=)
so nice of u...
haha
ok
this is for mel
mel loves HIM but she hates that bitch
yep
go figure

i am not going to say much abt yest
too long n too much
hais
the trama
the socialising
the countries talks

stop bothering me
or rather
the whole lot if us la
i've already done my best
i think we all did
hais...

Thursday, September 28, 2006

ARGH

i'm more confused den ever
keep telling myself not to care
but i can't
it's painful to think
but i can't help it
freaking confused

i dunno why i still bother to care so much
abt all these stuff now
going all these lengths
when i should be bloody concentrating on studying
making myself fret so much abt it
doing so much
i seriously hope tml's the last time
till it ends
why do i still bother?!

its back to haunt me

at this point of time
i seriously dun need all these shit
like wat the hell??
drag us back into this again
hais
SHIT LA
somebody PLEASE kill me now

Monday, September 25, 2006

lalala....

just cut my hair...
love my hair now!!
its straight
for now...
=)
haha
and soft...
heh
think i go buy the conditioner
hmmm...
ask sis first ba

i LOVE mel
she's soOoooo sweet
love the photo diary she made!!
so nice
=)
all the memories
all the fun times
all the stoning
all the everything
all the s04
=D
haha
think we all laugh until pengs
seeing all our dumb pics!
hehe...
miss all the time
now is pia-ing time
all the way s04!!

now singapore idol!!
hehe

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHERLYN CHEN!!
my cute pw group mate
=)

Sunday, September 24, 2006

sick

had a really bad night
kept waking up
running to the toliet
vomiting
woke up feeling worst
feverish
hais
went to see doc
stomach flu n slight fever
went home
troed to sleep
kinda felt like i was burning up with fever
horrid feeling
head was aching like mad
but just couldn't rest
finally fell asleep
spent most of the day in bed
feeling better le ba
but still rather weak
hmm...
watched S.I.
like the song composed
yep...
so tml's back to school
going to cut my hair after school tml i think
yep
hope everything goes well
and yes
i so do not wan to see my results
hais...
back to mugging ba...

suffering!

hais...
stomach feels real weird
argh
dunno why..
its been a few days le
damn uncomfortable
hais...
suffering...

Saturday, September 23, 2006

post-prelims!

okie!!
IT'S OVER!!!
=)
haha
like finally...
wahahahahahaha

yest
met e.t. on the way into school
dear gal having last paper too!!
after 1h15in
it's officially over
heh
they started clearing the hall
like 15 min after we left la
like erm..ok?
haha
was hanging arnd outside the hall
talking about alot of crap things
and also deciding where to go
spent so long talking n stuff la
we finally decided to just go interchange first
after much waiting
finally went off
went city hall
had brunch
at thai express!!
yums
food was good
service was great too
hmmm
ppl there were
yushan.ber.mel.choo.clarie.feng.wil.elvin
9 of us
super noisy!!
haha
clarie went off after eating
off to marina we went
SHOPPING MADNESS
haha
seriously
think we deprived of shopping le
haha
shop shop shop
walk arnd like mad
haha
wanted to watch movie
but couldn't decide wad to watch
ended up hanging arnd the cinema
cuz they had these great chairs there
watched all the preveiws of the shows
oh ya!!!
saw yanshan n jieling!!!
so long nv see them le
miss them tons n tons
=)
after a while
went off for more shopping
den franz came
after more shopping
finally settled down to slack
at starbucks
mel treated oreo cheesecake
yums
java chip frap was double yums
spent a long while slacking there too
den we went off
headed to esplanade
yushan n feng went off
slacked at the river side
watching the sun go down
talking abt things
thinking abt things
the gals went off to the lib
nice nice place
after tt
dinner at glutton's bay
yums!!!
good food with good company!
really a foodie grp la
after tt
still went for dessert at marina
haha
finally went home
quite late la
had a really great n fun day!!
=D
knocked out at night

today
woke up late
den started preparing to go out le
although i already late by 10 min
the rest were even later
haha
expected
actually bought a magazine
and managed to read the entire thing
b4 went off with wil n choo
got drinks n sweets
and waited a while more b4 ber n elvin came
off to marina again!!
didn't manage to catch the movie again
timing all wrong
off to play pool
the gal played one game
b4 went off to the arcade!!
damn fun la
i think i really no childhood
alot nv play b4
haha
damn fun
bishibashi.daytona.and sumthing la
haha
fun fun
time flew real quick
went off to meet mel
sakae for lunch!!
after so much waiting n saving for this day
ahaha
really really full
but it was tons of fun
we were there for like 2 hours?
haha
yep
decided to walk off our full tummys
walked to the cathy
hehehe
shop shop
headed further down towards town
took pics here n there la
finally reach town
went hereen
shop shop shop
took neoprints
shop shop shop
time flew
it was real late went we left
more walking
haha
they got chips to eat
haha
finally headed home
the train was so packed!!!
haha
could hardly breathe
the walk home seemed super long
haha
tired!!!
but to my surprise
neither my bro nor sis were home
and it was already 11 la
haha
damn tired
but it was fun!!
=D

great post-prelims activities!!
time well spent
due to great company
haha
some r&r
b4 its back to the books
=)

i seriously hate it when ppl imply things
i am NOT so wu liao to go n spend my time
coming up with stories
like pls lo
i wun lie abt this kind of things
was so fucking pissed off
so now
everything is like WADEVER!!
yep
not going to care so much abt it le
it so ironic how it is now
how the situation has been twisted
to suit watever one wants to see it
and how ppl pushes the blame
i guess everyone is selfish
who would wan to take the blame rite?
like LOOKS WHOSE TALKING!!!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

one more day to go

yay!!
one more day to go
to the end of the prelims
haha
kinda anti climax la
cuz like today most ppl end le
can like feel their excitment after the chem mcq ended
rather funnie
but my area is like calm
cuz we still have paper tml
1 h 15 min only!!
lalala
finally!!!!
after so long
got to meet up with rach!!!
=)
and yes coffee was great
after paper ended
had like a impromto meeting in the hall
about all the things we wanna do
damn funnie la
like we end le like tt
haha
nvm la
the excitment
=p
went off to parkway with choo
ber.elvin.reagan came along
and ended up eating with us
good food!!
lots to talk abt
we sat there for like very long la!!
met choo's sec tuition teacher
super super shuai!!
all of us just sit there n stare at him la
haha
funnie
even the guys!!
after tt some walking arnd in parkway
pre-shopping trip?
yep!!
haha
finally
me n choo settled at pacific coffee!!
yums
coffee
heh
studied and talked to rach
=D
saw this super duper cute korean small gal
maybe like 3 plus years old
so cute!!
haha
studied for a few hours
before heading home
saw many tpjcian already enjoying post-prelims
oh wells
haha
can't wait for this to end
lalala
looking forward to the activities in the next few days
=D

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

random-ness

hais...
dun feel like studying le
it seems tt we already started to somewhat relax
after paper today
went to airport
staff canteen
heh..
nice food
yep...
i guess my class is quite a foodie class
we went off walking arnd the airport
walked frm one end to the other
of terminal one
sky train!!
some funny thing with choo
acting like a kid!
fun fun
=)
shopped arnd all the shops
spent alot of time kinda aimlessly wandering
had lots of fun doing tt though
simple pleasures
we ended up at the veiwing gallery
spent quite a while there
talking...slacking... listening for the dunno how many times
mr brown's zheng my car
haha
damn funny
after dunno how long
finally headed home
stone mode le
damn tired
mel called
talked
k.o.ed after hanging up with her
just woke up
haha
i guess i'll try to study?
later ba...

i feel like going to the beach
yep
lots of mixed feelings
abt my life
argh...

off to watch tv
=p

Sunday, September 17, 2006

can't think of a title

hmmm...
stayed at home
studied
like so fun huh?
haha
yest was a more interesting day!
was awaken by mel's sms
studied a little b4 going out
met up with sis at bugis
heh
got treated by her for lunch
ajisen
yums
den went to get her handphone
but sadly it was out of stock
so we went for a bit of shopping
hehe
got a coin purse
nice!!
=)
quite glad i got something i wanted to buy
hmmm...
still like tt fragrance lots
will be added on my super long wish list ba
=/
dragged sis off
after a bit of shopping
she keep bullying me
carry her super duper heavy lap top
i gave up lugging it arnd
and put in my bag
almost died la
shoulder ache!!
took train to hougang
went a little more shopping
this time for grocery
b4 heading to mel's house
haha
damn lucky i still remember how to get there
the level on which she stays was a prob though
but got it figured out quite easily ba
haha
called her to open door
but she actually refused la
haha
finally she opened
kena shocked to see me
haha
=)
gave her the "anti-stress" box
filled with tons of tibits
hey
glucose is the only metabolite tt the brain uses
so yep
u need tons of it to think
haha
and got her a pint of bens & jerrys
let's just say she was very happy
=D
talked a while
b4 i left le
so mel finally got to see my sis
haha
yep
was dragged by sis arnd hougang mall
and she went a little mad seeing tt toy pig
frm the show my lovely samsoon
i think
haha
yep
finally went off
after my bb tea fix
=p
it started to rain like mad
saw yogi on the way back
stoned all the way home
oh yes
for mel : it takes an hour by train for me...
arnd same as bus i think
spent the rest of the night studying?
at least tried to
yep
slept a little earlier arnd 11.30
was super tired by den le
haha
yep
had a good day...

the new week is here
FOUR more papers
jia you jia you!!
=X

Friday, September 15, 2006

rain rain rain rain

it rained like mad today
it was pouring the entire day
yep
the drains were almost flooding
haha
so damn cold la
such a nice weather to sleep in
but was waken by bro
early in the morn
had to sent a book out for him
but
went back to sleep
haha
the day was kinda wasted
kept falling asleep
i guess the weather was just too nice
the cold just made one want to cuddle n slp
and there's the exhuastion frm all the mugging n papers
studied little
but i guess better den nothing ba?
hais...
shall go back to the books later

there's a limit to my tolerance
but i'm reaching it soon
i so want to lash out at u
but i trying to ren
stop doing this to me
please..

stress is a real horrible thing
it creeps ot of no where
and clings on like super glue
to a dear gal
it will get better
we jia you together ya?
=)

rejecting it all... especially...

Thursday, September 14, 2006

half done

i'm done for the week
one more week to go
hais....
that's all i can say
hais....

went airport today
to do two things
1. eat at the staff canteen
2. study
found not a bad place to study
n relax
at least for me la
love the coffee there
dies
addiction
guess who i met
darren!
haha
he's working somewhere in there
oh ya
the place was like totally tpjcian filled
we spent alot of time there la
from arnd 12 to 6 plus
yep

as the rain started to fall
staring at the raindrops
my mind went a wandering
thinking of so many nonsensical things
hais
wasting time n energy
but i can't help it if my mind wonders
its crap
pure madness even
but its my respite i guess
frm everything
hais...
feel so freaking dumb
study ba
tt's all i can do now
so damn tired
hais...

caring so much..maybe even caring more than i should..do u noe wat it feels like to feel unappreciated?
i do... but i guess i'm the one to blame..i dunno why i'm feeling like this and doing all this
but i dun want to think n dun want to noe cuz it will all come up to nothing
mag..u are so fucking dumb


love the song
=)

in pain...extreme emotional pain..trying so hard to keep up the facade

Friday, September 08, 2006

dreaming

so sick of studying
yes
it's really possible to stare at books
and want to cry
going mad
so screwed for prelims
hais...
and yes
ur naggings is so not helping
feel like screaming
hais...

i just wanna go to the beach
stare at the stars
listen to the waves
wait for a new day to come
hais...

poison of the day : coffee
lots of it
iced.hot.blended.
yums

addiction : salt n vinegar lays chips
all thanks to choo who got me hooked
=)

i'm going crazy
yep...
seriously
all the thots abt things that are so NOT possible..
but i still allow myself to... dream...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

totally traumatised

i'm TOTALLY traumatised
like my day is totally spoilt
by MEL
oh my tian...

-traumatised-

Monday, September 04, 2006

dumb butt day

this post
is requested by mel lim

mel is the BIGGEST dumb butt in the world!!
due to some misconnection in her small pea brain
she thot that the DAY
the very day that her braces would be taken out
4th sept 500pm
BUT
it is supposed to on the 7th sept
two days later
so all her weeks of anticipation has just gone down the Singapore River.
therefore she is grumpy now
whining into my ears
haha
but the happy thing is she is in LOVE with 305
and she thinks that he rocks
=)

mag loves mel
and yes i will try not to be late...
=p

Sunday, September 03, 2006

savin' me

go figure...

its official...

hais...
my com really died on me
hais....
i really dun want to lose all the stuff i haf in it la
my pics....
man
two years worth...
arghh...
some tt i'll never be able to get back la
i dun wan
really pray tt they dun haf to wipe out the system
but
chances are slim ba
damnmit
my memories in pics
hais....
=(
super sad

one week more
mug mug mug
argh
going crazy le

can can:
life's like tt
dun let it pull u down
prove it to her tt u can do it
it's ur life
u chose to take this path
work for it
dun let wad they all sae affect u
more importantly
trust in urself
it may be tough now
but u'll be fine
i'll be there to help
in wadever way i can lo
dun fret abt the future too much
concentrate on now
n let urself enjoy jc life
stress is just a part of it
k?
*muacks*

i like this song!!
=)

Saturday, September 02, 2006

argh!!

currently using my sis's laptop
which is rather cool
hai...
there's sumthing wrong with the house com
so quite glad there's like 2 laptops at home
my bro's and my sis's
hais...
hope i dun lose everthing i saved on the com
like all my pics
tt will be damn sad la...
=(
feel very cut off frm the world
wonder why...
guess i'll be spenting most of the hol at home mugging
yep
dun even haf to go back school much
except once i think
argh...
going quite mad
tata..
i'm off