footprints of life: May 2006

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

no peace

had to go school early today
had a hard time getting up
just so tired
so i ended up being late
tried listening to the lect
but i dun get it
hais...
lucky mr chow sae he will give us the answers
so didn't really listen
hais...
soon lessons ended
went off
spent alot of time waiting
den went to eat
at tmart
jieying.amanda.choo.mel.alicia
clarie n daph came a while later
bought flower for canteen auntie
its her b dae
went back to school to pass to her
she was surprised la
hahas
went off
headed to choo's house
weather was horribly hot
hais...
settled down
watched i not stupid too
yes yes
after so long
and yes
its a damn nice show
touching
nice nice
after tt
watch a little frm you tube
abt this show tt's going to be shown
green forest
or sumthing like dat?
the small boy is sooooooo CUTE
haha
anyway
after a while
we stopped
ate choc pudding
yum yum
den out came the books
haha
we tried to do chem la
solving the question
argh
freaking hard to get it la
anyway
after quite a while of doing
till arnd 6 plus
went out to eat
coffee shop
hmmm..
wentback to study summore
they did chem
i did bio
basically
my mind was just not there
hais....
stayed there till arnd 9 plus
den choo sent us out
oh ya
thanks for the help wif the bus
yup
took 21
to arnd my area
mel was shocked i stayed so near
waited with her for her bus
den the long walk home
thinking time
hais
bloody drained

no peace
at all
can't concentrate in lessons
can't eat properly
can't study properly
without sumthing coming up
without sumone calling

damn bloody xin ku
having things n ppl blow up in my face
one to many times

caring too much
stressing so much
worrying so much
but it just gets thrown back in my face

ARGH!!
but who cares abt wad i feel right?...
is there anyone that will listen to me?

i need some peace

Monday, May 29, 2006

ka-BOOM

woke up early
reach school near 730
was supposed to eat breakfast
but i reached too late
n mel had to go shooting le
sorry gal
so i went to spent some quality time
with my new love
but ended up doing band stuff
den had breakfast with mel
after tt
back to my love
enjoying the peace n quiet in the band room
hais...
all too soon
ppl started coming in
band time
wad to sae
hais....
attendance was just fab
like ya
so u see no need to inform before hand
abt havinglessons
leaving ppl wondering
thanks
there's nothing much to mention abt the rest of the day
survived it with a headache n cramps
daniel came back
so i didn't need to play alone
hais
i'm convinced i made a right choice
one that i dun regret making

absolutely no bloody respect
so u dun deserve any
hate me for all i care

more headaches
collecting money
hais....
went home
didn't meet amanda

if u thot wad i did was wrong
den why didnt u stop me
why didnt u take over

no right to sae wad u did

why is it alwaes me
why?!

damn bloody pissed off
somebody asked my a question today
it just showed the great big irony of it all
i so wanted to laugh at it
but one sentence
it showed way too much
just way too much

to cry or to laugh
this ran through my mind one too many times today
it seems too cruel to laugh
yet so dumb to cry
so i did nothing

pathetic
it describes it all

someone told me today
it took that person so long to learn to be calm
but it took me so long to forget being calm

ka-BOOM ka-BOOM

i hate u
i hate this
get the fucking hell out

Sunday, May 28, 2006

start of hols?

hols officially started ba
but it really doesn't feel like it
hais...
unpredictable weather
it was bright n sunny at 8
and at 11
it poured
hmmm...
day remained cold
hmmm...
i think i'm in need of sleep la
keep sleeping
hmmm...
tml haf to go school
band
but
should i go earlier to run?
hmmmmm....
think think
argh!!
i want to go shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mel!!
when??!!
haha

ok
things to do this month
1) study
2) wash my bag
3) buy things!!
4) study

Saturday, May 27, 2006

two down...two more to go

fri
got up earlier than usual
reached school earlier too
hmmm...
for one of the few times
s04 is rather complete early in the morn
with most of the gals there
but the guys only franz i think
hmmm...
went to hall there wait
checked seating
hmmm...
waited
talked...
went in
got to my place
mr reynolds was talking n talking
hais...
ok
i totally screwed up my essay
gosh
bad choice maybe
but serious
this time i'm dead
hais...
after compo
dashed out
too freaking cold in hall
compre
though it was not an easy paper
i think its alright
compared to my compo
hais...
after that
actually wanted to go out as a class to eat
but ended up not going with them
so me.mel.choo.franz
went to canteen to eat
heard some stuff frm mr lim tt didn't really brighten my day
hais...
after eating
stayed there n crapped for a while
den went to find a place to study
settled outside lt5
tried to do last min cramming and revising ba
ok
had a little fun too
=)
poor ET was real sick
so as a present to her
packets of tissue
haha
soon
went down to hall area again
hias...
my most dreaded paper
maths
worst still
sat beside jy
STRESS!!
anyway
i gave it my all le
put in alot of effort
i hope it pays off
thanks to all those tt encouraged me
=)
3 hours in the hall was torture!!
freezing cold
even with a jacket
we spent quite a while talking abt the paper after it ended
took a very long time to get moving
so anyway
went to eat subway
so long haven been there le!!
14 of us?
yup
i still love the cookies there
=D
talked and had fun?
haha
after that
went to walk walk
met amamda t at cs
talked
hmmm...
went to walk arnd the place
finally after aimless wanderings
we had a meeting
so it came down to starbucks.bowling or home
decided against bowling
went to starbucks
but was packed
haha
ended going to cs foodcourt slack
we stayed there for a damn long time la
crapped alot
took crap pics
slacked
time passed
left arnd 10 plus?
went home
stoned arnd
was reading storybook
den had a crappy sms convo with grace
old ppl....
oops
until 130 plus?
i think i slept without replying
oops
haha
so its 2 papers down
haf to start on bio n chem le
busy month ahead
panorama rehearsals.band prac.lessons.
so fast
its going to be june

today
amazingly
i woke up much earlier den expected
arnd 10
did nth much
sms info
den my phone started to buzz non-stop
for the rest of the morning till now
hais...
i think i typed the same sms abt 5-6 times today
all to diff ppl
my bill.....
exploded again
hais...
and i expect this month's one wun be any better
but now there is peace
stopped buzzing le
yeahness
haha
=)
will take a step at a time
see how everything goes on mon

haf to concentrate on studying
all othere things can be kept till later

Thursday, May 25, 2006

break time

wed
its a special day
was the THIRD person to be there at assembly
me!!
haha
=)
and i reached on the dot la
i got up earlier
and out of the house earlier too
so tt can buy breakfast for mel
both of us craving macs
haha
so when i reached the court yard on the dot
there was only TWO other ppl
haha
and most unexpectedly
franz was one of them la
thot he wun come today too
damn funnie
expect tt alot not coming but 3 ppl?
mel came along after the pledge
den 2 more ppl
so the class was made up of
mel.franz.zixuan.huichi.vanessa
grand total of SIX
haha
mr tan was like dunno how to sae la
as in i guess he expected tt ppl wun come
but not until like only 6 ppl la
since franz was the onli econs person
he skipped his lesson
poor him
watched me n mel eat la
den after tt
we went out of school
to 7-11
bought his breakfast
hmm...
and milk!!!
a litre each for me n franz
yums
but it looked rather weird
carrying arnd a litre carton of HL milk
started studying
the ppl came n find us
and persuaded us to pe
where we played badminton
hmmm...
fun
went to find mr tan
listened to his pointers
went for maths tut
7 of us!!
haha
now plus sherlyn
haha
after tt was done
went to study somemore
skipped all the other lessons
including chem tut
just sat there for the rest of the day n study
maths was driving me MAD
stress la
hais...
we left arnd one plus
so school today was just one period of maths
haha
saw clarie on the way out
bought lunch for me n bro
home
was cranky
due to stress n lack of sleep
thanks mel
for cheering me on
mug mug mug
dies
i'm still not prepared
freaking scared
hais....
did maths until arnd 12 plus
den dreamland

today
woke up early
arnd 8?
study study study
hmmm...
it's tml
dies....
and i haven done anything for gp
argh...

like vs love

In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster.

But in front of the person you love, you get happy.

In front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.

But in front of the person you love,winter seems like spring.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.

But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.
In front of the person you like,you can't say everything on your mind.

But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.

But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.

But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.

When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.

But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like,all you need to do is cover your ears.

But if you try to close your eyes,love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.

something i got off an email.... hmmm...

back to studying...

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

chiongster mode

lo n behold
mag is home EARLY today
haha
like real early
arnd 2?
i think its a first
ever since i entered jc
on a weekday no less
=)
i shocked bro!!
yeahness
and now
he keeps suaning me
for being home early
haha...
nothing much abt today
tutorial day
oh oh
after so long
ms chan came bac
she's taught us for one period
she's bac just for this week
haha
missed her teaching us!!
when lessons ended at 1250
stayed for a while
photocopy things
den went home with choo
21
waited so long
madness
tml
i shall be guai n go school
most of the class not going i think
but i rather go school study den stay home
cuz i can't really concentrate at home
hmmm...
yup...
will haf to settle movie tics thing soon
hope can by today
yup
rites
i'm off
to mug
chiongster mode now le..
dies
friday is SO close
i'm freaking scared for maths
i seriously suck at it
hais...

Monday, May 22, 2006

the sky
it cried for me today
cried the tears
i myself cannot
cried the tears
that's been in me
for so long
it cried for me today

empty inside
exhausted outside
deep inside
i bleed
hurting so much
it's a constant pain

i keep most inside
it's trying so hard to get out
but no
i won't let that happen

live on
painfullyt

the sky
it will cry for me
from now on

giving it up?
i dunno how to
cuz i'm not sure if i ever picked it up

knowing too much
hurts no one but me
but who am i to blame
cuz i wanted to know
to confirm wat was told
in hopes they were untrue
but no
they were true

my tiny shred of hope
is gone

i live
cuz i haf to
and for nothing else

nothing else to sae
cuz there's no more words able
to express wat i feel

if i could turn back time
won't i change anything?
i dunno
but its no use to dwell
so i shan't
at least i'll try

bye

Saturday, May 20, 2006

in need of rest

was supposed to be up like arnd 5?
but i onli got out of bed near 6
too little sleep for the entire week
sat used to be my sleep in day...
hais...
rushed to school
reached there stonned
open up band room
on air con
blah blah blah
take down stuff
hmmm...
pissed off...
watever
irritating ppl
hais...
why must alwaes wait to be promted to do things?
seek ur own comfort?
selfish
i guess it's human nature
argh...
waited for guitar ppl to STROLL in
like nearing 8
where we are supposed to be in the hall
and none of the guitar ppl are there
like rites
cannot lock band room till they came
argh...
went hall finally
heard more stuff
hais...
i guess i haf just proven a point to sumone
waited
warmed up
we reheared a few times
hmmm...
had this long waiting period
ppl were coming in
had fun talking to kaixin.jessica.nut.
lame jokes
performance
well
it went like it did
messy in the first parts
got better later
had this whole mad dash to go out
chiongster mode
hmmm..
made it out on time
walked back to band room
made announcements
abt the movie tickets
response is rather bad
and yup
i think i've come to a decision abt camp
hmmmm...anyway
really hope response will improve for the movie
went to eat the food tt was provided
not bad la
compared to last yr?
haha
yup
ate le
den went back band room
where i slept
was dead to the world la
damn tired le
haix...
a phone call woke up up
in the end la
but i think i did read an sms
half awake
hmmm...
so the rest of the time spent waiting for the event to end was in dreamland
hmmm...
move instru up
cleared up
packed up
left soon after
hmmm...
met up with the class
went to eat
but i didn't eat la
full
went to buy a gift for ms chan
chicken essence
haha
so now
i'm absolutely broke again
haha
koped from mel's ice kachang
after everyone was done
went off to ms chan's house!!
haha
excited la
cuz first time see her baby
hmmm...
jy.pauline.daph.amanda.ber.franz.choo.wilson n me
yup
i guess she was rather disappointed so little came
but nvm
we'll come again
heh
baby christian is so cute la
haha
crowded arnd
haha
was put in charge to bake
haha
5 of us in the kitchen
wad a crowd
haha
lesson learnt : alwaes read the instructions
haha
=)
when it went into the oven
went out to watch vcd
haha
some ghoast story
damn funnie
and slow show
ate ice cream
and brownies!!
haha
=)
nice nice?
hope so
haha...
yum yum
her husband couldn't take it
and was eating together with us la
haha...
hmmm...
we all screamed at one part
and amazingly
the baby didn't cry
haha
used to the noise
we're like the 3rd batch of students to come le
haha
oh ya
i carried the baby for a while
haha
so small!!
and of course
photo frenzy
franz's phone has the cutest pic
haha
=p
talked alot with ms chan
abt being pregnant
giving birth
the one month confinement
yup
alot more stuff too
choo is like good with kids
jy looks motherly
haha...
oops
haha
we hung arnd summore
talked a lot
watched tv
hmmm...
we left arnd 6 plus
we'll be going back in june ba?
haha
she wants us to go back to bake n cook
haha
and clean for her
haha
=)
yup yup
we'll be back
haha
the baby's real cute!!
haha
=D
went off
the bus took a mil years to come
took 69
den change to 15
hmmm...
didn't go maggie's house
too late le
went home
did stuff
tired
shall be sleeping early today
wake up n study tml
hais...
tired

looking back i see
how innocent i was
to trust
how dumb i was
to fall in
how blind i was
to disregard so much
how deaf i was
to warnings
cuz maybe i wanted to believe
cuz maybe i wanted to try
cuz maybe i lost my heart too soon
too many cuz maybes
too many feelings
too little courage
to do anything
and now
just a little too much pain
hurting inside
trying to keep it inside
so now i noe
but i still can't
why?
i ask this
but i cannot find the answer

-i'm tired of it all-

Friday, May 19, 2006

damn tired

wed
break for fist 2 lessons
tried to study for the chem quiz
but i think i fliped a few pages
went for pe early
hmm...
completed all the item
den strated to play badminton
play until late
for chem lect
but we still heck la
continue to play
went in like 10 - 15 min late
like thanks
take the quiz
den start to do
sit down not long
teacher say
5 mins more
like wad the
so heck lo
anyhow
but amazingly
i got 5/10
haha
i passed
=)
break
bio tut
break
gp tut
chem tut
band
had a short rehearsal
den went to haf sectionals on the pieces
haix
talked abt things
dunno wad's gonna happen le
oh ya
dr lee sae he treating us movie on the 9th june
erm
more we pay half half la
x men 3
hmmm...
complications
haix...
i guess
i may just haf to decide on sumthing fast
haix...
locked up
had dinner with amanda n franz
hmm...
funnie
laugh like mad de
yup...
took 31 laughed all the way again
was waiting for candice at bedok
took train together
talked
can can... i guess sum things are meant to be like dat la
bu gan xin is one thing
but dun dwell on it too long la
k?
home
slept the moment i got home
didn't do anything
too damn tired

thurs
was late for school
was busy packing gp file until i late
-_-"
bio lect was confusing
bio tut was irritating
cuz of the smell in the place
headache
break
went to eat
den went to study
first on the 2nd level tables
den went lib
i k.o.ed
writing half way
like erm
haha
den woke up after a few mins
packed file
did maths
gp tut
chem tut
double period
can go mad
sian until
had to try so hard to stay awake
after chem tut
continued with bio extra
damn tired la
ended arnd 5 plus
went to tm
got tickets for da vinic code
jy.pauline.daph.clarie.mel.ber.elvin.reagan.feng.choo.jason
haha
=)
the movie was not bad
thrilling la
but a little boring at the end
but yup
had our own ways to amuse ourselves
*winks
oh ya
we were in the same theater as charis n jessica
jessica screamed my name la
she was like at the top n we were in front
embrassing can?
dies
show ended arnd 8 plus
we all went home
all very tired
did stuff
slept

today
i was late for school again
hecks la
gp lesson in the morn
sian-ed
haha
break
decided not to eat
went to study
we den all decided not to go for lect
so stayed there n study
went to eat
study sum more
den chem tut
sian sian sian
but at least i can understand
bio lect
was sleeping
bio tut
interesting
gossips
singing
i suck at presentations
argh
=(
ended school
went for band
hais...
feel so dumb la
the day i never bring the thing
they ask for it
like shit la
hais..
rehearsal
den dr lee let us off early
like arnd 4?
ya...
hung arnd band room
saw tonglong
hmmm..
went off to bb tea stall
ate
walked back into school
we were on the bridge for a long while la
haha
parted with amanda
went tm with daoh
met up with rach
went to buy can can prezzie
den took train
met up with cedric on the way there
took all the way to city hall
den me n rach went off
walked to esplanade
den to vch
haha
got seats
settled down
the concert was not bad la
but
i was so damn tired
i actually slept for a while la
cannot take it le
first time sleep in a concert la
anyway
saw tons of tkgssb ppl
haha
my juniors!!
so cute la
haha
concert ended late
near 10
went off
waited to sae bye to cancan
walked to mrt again
stonned
haha
all the way back
was stonning
got home
hais...
tml
got to wake up damn early
like even earlier den normal
for me la
hais....
tired tired tired

-maybe...i already expected it...
maybe deep down..i believed it...
but hearing it
hurts
so maybe
it was really nothing at all to u...
if i asked..
would u tell me?-

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

no more time

mon
new week
pe early in morn
shit
improved the timing
but still not good enough
dies...
bio lect
was madness
dunno wad she talking abt la
must go study
chem lect was sian
she like dunno wad she teaching
talk n talk
argh
lucky she let off us early
break
bio tut
den break again
gp mwas next
madness
must do file
dies
slept a little
maths tut
was irritated by sumthings
but nvm
dun disturb ppl when they sleeping ma
haha
relief maths cher
nice nice
mrs koh?
haha
no band today
alot of ppl zhao super fast
left me.mel n ber
went bb tea stall
mel binge la
haha
went study a while
den the econs ppl end le
tried to study
but ended up being counseller
talked to ppl
yup
went back to study after a long while
den met can can at bedok
ate n talked alot
haha
i got my mothers' day gift frm her
kinder surprise
=)
went home
tired...
but must mug
almost slept on table la

tues
got to school early
haha
i'm broke
paid for 2nd half for prom
haha
watch show
teen sex n abortion
hmmm...
some food for thought ba?
yup
chem tut
overview on NMR
bio tut
sian ness
break
double maths tut
den k.o.ed
haha
for a while
damn tired
after tt
chem tut again
wah
so tired
went open band room
went lib study
damn cold there can?
study study study
until 4 plus
went for band
hmmm....
tiring la
move here move there
run up n down
went high la
was going crazy at the back
oops
haha
cold jokes from jessica
haha
rehearsal ended soon after
moving again
wah
can so tired
but ya
high la
moving chairs
thanks to amanda n daphne
haha
sHhhh... la
in band rm
clear up things
man
thanks ar?
like i needed to go any higer
was going mad
haha
fix the fan
yes
our best fren
haha
closed up
went to meet boonhwee at bus stop
den the whole lot of us went bbtea stall
amanda.daph.bh.me
bought drinks
went cs to eat
not much of an appetide
argh
was rather quiet ba?
until the end?
haha
yup
talk crap
hmmm...
went to send them off
taking cab
like duh
haha
met can can
talked
went home
talked n talked
hmmm...
take care gal
concert in a few days le
smile smile
potato salad rocks!!
remb ur promise k?
=)
tired
but need to mug
haix...
maths maths maths

-i'm going mad-

dunno wad's going on le
i dunno wad i'm doing
going with the flow
let's see wad's happens now..

Saturday, May 13, 2006

my exhuasting week

mon
exhausting day
had pe early in the morn
ran 2.4
my timing sucks
big time
will re run to improve it ba
haix...
tiring
didn't go for bio lect
slacked arnd
but was guai n went for chem lect
2 whole periods
haha
after that
changed into class tee
ate
was supposed to haf bio tut
went to the classroom
waited n waited
but ms nora didn't come
finally called her
she was sick
so free period la
haha
come school dunno for wad
cuz lessons end for the day le!!
haha
we slacked arnd in the classroom
made alot of noise!!
haha
changed in slippers
hmmm...
everyone felt like we were going like chalet la
so many bags n stuff
anyway
we slacked arnd at the tables
waiting for gates to open
it was super hot
haix...
went out
took bus
funnie thing happened
cuz it was ENG HAN"S 18th birthday
so we were like passing mel's phone arnd
each of us wishing him b dae
haha
went to tm
got some food
hmmm...took mrt to kallang
okwe all piled our bags together on the floor
and we had a camp fire
haha
was crapping.stoning.slacking all the way there
we walked to the place
lo n behole
we, S04 , was the FIRST class there
damn funnie
like there was no one else except sea sports ppl
alicia was soooooooooooooo super shocked by us
we are normally so late
haha
anyway
found a place n settled down
ber.mel.me.franz
slept on the ground with bags a pillow
wah
shuang!!=)
we had the dragonboat racefirst race of the day
haha
we tried our best
and i think we did well!!
S04 rocks my world!!
=)
after tt
we had this whole long waiting time
b4 had other events
so choo n me went to sit in the sun
sun tanning
haha
watching the races
sang.crapped.gossipped
arnd 5 plus
reported to canoeing events
waited so long more can?
was talking
burying franz in sand
his feet i mean
class gals are good la
did well in a few events!!
the class twins rocks
haha
=p
took part in girls relay
partner was vee
actualli supposed to be clarie
but she had to leave
anyway
we did well!!!
3rd!!
=P
mel became a class clown la
in one side n out the other
in the other side n out again
damn funny
laugh until i forgot the pain of having my knee rammed
twice
so fun!!
=D
after tt they cancelled all the other events
cuz after my event already near 7
cleaned up
den went to kfc at kallang to eat
haha
damn fun
everyone was high
too tired
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z
hor?
haha
*winks
finally
after much crapping
we left the place
walked to bus stop
took 32
so long nv take tt bus le
went past tkgs
hmm...
its been way too long
since i went back
damn tired
was stoning all the way
got cancan to come out meet me
sweet her
brought water for me
haha
walked n talked
yup
came to a place wher we just sat down by the road side n talked
was so tired le
almost didn't wan to walk home
haix...
went home
slept

tues
tutorial day
had cme lesson early in the morn
hmmm...
watched some video
lala...
tutorials all the way
can die
but the day was a rather short one
after tt
mr chow not free
so didn't haf remedial
went to library to study
did maths
sit at one corner n do
hmmm...
was so tired after doing quite a lot
i slept on the table
mel woke me up
but i just mumbled some thing n went back to sleep
haha
ok
stayed in lib n do for very long
until 630
when the lib close
damn funnie la
when the libraian come n tell us closing le
mel.jy.daph.amanda n me
decided tt we can start talking loudly
so we did
we were all going mad by then le
haha
teacher was like kinda scolding us in a joking manner
went off
with amanda to tm
she craved for tako balls
yup
was there for a while
cuz she wanted to watch the ppl make it
hmmm...
took train
went to paris ris den bac
haha
crap la
went home
did stuff?
haha

wed
i baiscally did some work
during the 2 periods break
den slept nearing the end
pe
did napfa five items
actually onli did shuttle run n sit ups
was supposed to do sbj
but haha
didn't do
i think i went for chem lect
ya i did
hmm..
break
maths tut
maths lect
during mt period had chem tut
gp was slack
going through things
den yet another chem tut
chem spa revision
later had band
nat didn't come
hmmm...
was super tired
cuz at first is rehearsal for college day
den later prac in hall
oh ya!!
saw ms chan!!!
she came bac to see principle
woah!!
she looks like she was nv pregnant la
her figure was like last time le
so long nv see her le
hope we can go visit her n her babe soon
ended pract arnd 630
move instru
locked up
waited with daph for amanda cab
went to bb tea stall
ate
went home

thurs
bio lect was ok la...
option topic is horrible
got so many things to remb
argh...
bio tut
ok lo
nothing interesting
break started
ate
den went to study
outside sea sports room there
was mugging for chem spa
trying to memorise everything
den out of no where
got tonglong's sms tt he's in school
tio shock la
anyway
went to find him in canteen
he came to find mr lim
with little success
talked a little
den he went off soon after
i think go school ba
went back to study
apparently
all the econs ppl decided to pon econs lect
so they were all there
study study
class went mad
was crapping like mad
n laughing like mad
went of for gp
ok
i was tired
i k.o.ed
and slept through some of her lesson
left early for chem spa
scared la
ok
chem spa
tried to get everything i memorised down
hope everything was correct
hmmm...
funnie things happen la
franz lit the spirit lamp
just for fun
but went he tried to blow it off
he couldn't
tried n tried n tired
but just couldn't blow it off la
he started to laugh
den everyone arnd him saw la
den all started to laugh
like in the test la
damn funny
cuz ms khoo came over to his table
n told him to take a deep breath
n blow it off
but he tried n still it didn't go off
finally after a LONG while
he used a beaker n capped it
and within a sec
it went off
madness la
ms khoo was also real pissed off by some ppl la
cuz b4 we started
she told us to pour all the alcohol
back into the bottle
but sumone
pour into sink
ya
pissed her off la
cuz it's flammable
anyway
we were let off on time
went to bb tea
but too many ppl
so bought stuff frm 7-11
shared hl milk with franz
the 1l one
yums
i love milk
haha
watch the sa vs tp match
mel mei came bac!!
haha
match was exciting
haha
although we lost
it was a good game
=)
took our own sweet time to leave the place
hmmm...
funnie thing happened when we were leaving
hor mel?
~walk faster
haha
anyway took 12 with amanda
went pp
pei her eat
den went home
while waiting for bus
reagan popped out of nowhere
shocked me la
haha
talked a while b4 my bus came
went home

fri
public holiday
vesak day
but i had to go back to school
college day rehearsal
tired
prac went ok la
ended earlier den expected
arnd 11?
moved instruments
pack chairs
tired
seniors came back
julian n kwang liang!!
haha
yup
was freaking tired
talked to joce.farhan. amanda
stuff
hmmm...
so many things to think abt
after a while
everyon e came out
n we left
yup
thanks ar amanda
yup
i'll try not to be sad
hmmm
took 12 with her again
dropped off at tanah merah
went home
bathed
den slept for a while
b4 went out again
to celebrate mothers' day
my sis's treat
went to this placed called bq korea
quite nice la the food
ate
den walked arnd the place
went home soon after
bathed again
den slept
everyone slept la
woke up arnd 8 plus
6 missed calls
whoots
all frm amanda i think
ate a little pie for dinner
studied
slept

sat
i slept through my alarm la!!
lucky mum woke my up at 630
i practically chionged out la
was supposed to meet mel at 7
for breakfast
haha
was a little late
had breakfast at macs
woah tt place has changed
nice
haha
maths lesson
went ok
was let off arnd 945
me.choo.mel
went off to track there after parting with the rest
tried sit n reach n sbj
man
sad
my sit n reach deprove
last time like 50 plus de
not like 47 la
argh!!
went to change
den went running
haha
run n run n run
for like 30 plus min
leg was numb
rest a while
den went to run again
2 more rounds
damn shuang la
weather was good
running is addictive
haha
went to change
decided to bathe
haha
felt great man
only left the place arnd nearing 12
saw mazlinah
talked a little
poor gal la
got test
hmmm...
happended to see clement too
went off
to tm
it was raining
on the way out
saw a clar senior i think
not sure
haha
went to cs foodcourt
ate
beef noodle
yum yum
the 3 of us was so full after tt la
so we decided to walk a big round to the kfc to study
whoots
i like tt perfume!!
gucci de
i forgot the name
haha
nice!!
anyway
i think i saw more seniors
but not sure
went to kfc
started studying
did maths
saw sis's tj band ppl
hmmm...
went crazy doing maths
did until like 4pm
b4 we went off
sent choo off to tm
den walked mel to her bus stop
den finally
i went home
haha
i'm going out later for dinner i think
celebrate mothers' day for grandma
haha
on the way home
i thot of many things
haix...
too many things on my mind
i just can't figure out wat's going on in me le
haix...

-so confused abt u-

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i once had a hope

that this was all real

but it was nothing more than a dream

one i find so hard to get out of

struggling to come back to reality

but reality has nothing in store for me

nothing but pain and frustration

i wonder why i want to come back

but that once beautiful dream

is starting to shatter

piece by piece

it breaks away

i'm left with nothing

to sustain me

nothing more than pain

losing faith in ever finding

colour in my world again

everything is dark

i go on alone

with doubts trailing me

pain and frustration as my only companions

i live

painfully alone

Sunday, May 07, 2006

back ache!!

sat
woke up late
cooked my lunch
did some stuff
haix..
rushed out of the house at 2.05
was to meet daph n jy at 2.20 la
i practically ran all the way to the station
haha
but i was early
or rather they met late too
took train down to kallang together
fabian.wilson.daph.jy.me
yup
reached a little later then 230
most were there le
hmmm..
went to find atm
but not one in sight
waited for wilson to get his lunch
walked to the place
haha
since we met real ealr
we had time to slack arnd first
haha
due to last yr's incident
we met up like at 2.30 when we can only use the boat at 4
haha
nvm
it worked
everyone was early
haha
we were storing our valubles
funnie la
put everything in one plastic bag
i was like holding a few thousands in tt bag la
handphones.wallets.ipods.nanos.mp3.camera
like abt 17 ppl stuff la
funnie sight
after storing everything
got a paddle n life jacket each
when onto the boat
paired up with alicia!!
=)
training
re learnt all the basics
rowed
real glad the weather's not tt hot
rowed n rowed
played games
tug of war
hmmm...
wad else
oh ya
we played this game where we all sat on the gunrail n just rocked the boat like mad
fun
but scared someone
yup so we stopped
hmmm...
after rowing some more
rowed to this place where amanda asked if anyone wanted to jump in
so they did
haha
funnie la
congrats to daphne!!!
who jumped in even though she was afraid of water
jumped in too!!
haha
real nice feeling
floating in the middle of the river
=p
we all climbed back on
den off we went rowing some more
hmmm...
oh ya
me n alicia
started splashing mel
damn funnie la
ended up alicia pushed her in!!
yup
we love u mel
and we all rowed off
leaving her there la
funnie
=)
rowed n rowed
hard work k?
haha
hmm..
was splashing amanda with alicia
n amanda took this container used to bail water
and dumped us with water
haha
the whole boat worked together
n got amanda in the water too
haha
=)
yup
fun!
tiring too
ber was complaining abt how hungry she was arnd 5 plus
den everythime when we took a break
she will be telling us how
she wished she could eat mcdonalds
came up with a lot of crap
calling delivery
how they would use helicopter to drop it off
crap!!
haha
finally
we ended the session
muscle aches
stress to be pacer
with alicia as partner!!
argh
must jia you!!
yup
we returned everything
got our stuff
sorted out valubles
den all went off to stadium to bathe
wah
damn shuang
haha
took quite a while i guess
girls being girls
finally all were done
waited for bus to come
went to marina bay there to haf steamboat
quite a experience
hmm..
there were 9 of us
amanda.daph.wilson.franz.elvin.pauline.vee.ber.me
we bearly started
den it started raining
and we were not under shelter
funnie la
but we all heck
continue to eat
lucky the rain stopped after a while
eat n eat
everyone was so thristy la
bought drinks
ate n ate
haha
yup
we never like water tt much b4
haha
took a long time to eat la
like almost 2 hours?
ate n ate
talked n talked
haha
and ya
most of us agreed
we felt like we were not in s'pore
dunno why
just the feeling of the place
haha
rather weird n funnie feeling
took bus back to the station
ok
ugly s'poreans
got up by the back door
got the driver pissed off la
so went at the station bus stop he didn't open the back door
everyone had to alight by the front
so went caught the ppl
got one of the last trains
hmmm..
took train all th way to bedok
to draw money to return ber
thanks ber!!
den cabbed home
with franz.elvin.amanda
tired
bathed again
den slept

can can
i will be there to lend a listening ear k?
dun think so much
at least try
hard as it may be
leave this alone first ba
yup
take care gal

today
slept in again
ate lunch
den did work
maths n more maths
hmm...
did some housework
man
my back is stiff la
dunno how to run 2.4 tml
den its the heats tml too
gosh
dinner was great
=)
tml's going to be a tiring day

small little things
trigger memories

-its been so long...yet i can't move on-

footprints of life