a sneezy day
argh..tutorial day againlegs are aching frm pe yestassembly in hallhad talk abt the graduation cert thingyboring...went for civis lessonwas tiredso i dozed off after a whilei tried sleeping earlier lebut still...hmmm...next was chem..so blur for this topicdiesneed to revise more lenext was biowent through more mcqtime pass quite quickly lams chan let us off a few mins earlywent off to canteenfranz is madhe was complaining during chem tt he hungryby the time we went to canteenhe apparently ate 1 plate of noodles1 plate of food frm western stalland a bunlike in one periodwoahsden later he ate like more prata?wat the helleat so much still like bamboo stick!!!bish~went bac to classroom for maths tuthe was still saying he hungrymadnessargh....i hate it the way the words are phrasedis as if i owe u like tti haf the rite not to open loif i'm free i dun mind going to open but i'm like in the middle of lessons laexpect me to make excuse just to pass to ui m not ur servant la...argh.....sumtimes dun expect so damn muchhaix..spoil my moodsumhowmaths went by fastden went for the last period of chemso tiredand still so blurwahthe whole daythe ppl arnd me keep sneezing lafranz...mel... and even me...hahaa sneezy dayweather was hot toohmm...yupall of us skipped chichi results out tml!!!was supposed to meet mr lim at 130 but he ended up talking to me b4 ttso i could leave earlierhe so poor thing lahis class consisted of 1 personhahayupwent to outside band room wif choowaiting for nut to end lessons den pass keyslistening to musicwhile lying on the tableshuang siathe fan so nicehahacan fall alseep la2 mad gals lying flat on the table top lawad a sighthahaanywaygot the keystook the things i neededden went off lewent to meet clarie n fengwent off to parkwayhahawaited for bus until so sianso decided to cab downhaha1st timei met a driver tt demanded we wear seat belts..hahareached theredecided where to eatended up on delifranceexpensivehahaok labut i like the cakeyummyhahawe den went round looking at thingstopshop.dorthy perkins.marks n spencer etchahawalk walkden we went to the basementwhootswarm choc cake!!!!!!frm some ice cream placei'm in love with it lawarm choc cake with the gooey centre n ice creammatch made in heavenwe were playing with feng's phonemultiply shothahafunnycaught nice n damn funny pics!!!hahayupi guess we walked arnd a lotwent mphchecked out booksyuphahasoonwent to get the drink frm starbucks for broden we went off homewalked across roxy to take bus with clarieher 14 came first32 alwaes take so long bthhmmm...went homemummy bought waffleshared with brodidn't do much...helped mummy cook dinner a littlefish n chipsyummyyup yupthe class guys are having a absolutely gross talk on msn...hahaoh yah!!i'm so dead lathe new month haven even startand i already already like sent 50 odd smses todaysumone please kill mehahai wonderif i forget to bring my phone one daywill anything happencan i even survive?hahai think should be la...just miserablehahahmmmi learnt another way to land in hospitalthis time from franzinteresting...tired...work to do...so tiredhaiz...i dunno if u noe or not...so tempted to just say it outjust to see ur reaction...going crazy...reminders frm everythingtrying so hard to not thinkbut it's also impossible...do u noehow sad it isto see u onlineand yetwe dun talk...haix...-feel my pain-
emotional hell
today was a horrible day for mehad a bad nitewas going through dunno wad to sae kinda moodit was just horriblepe was oki guess everything just went downhill after ttemotions were in a jumbleso stressd outso worriedso confusedso tiredso everythingran arnd trying to finish thingsarghden i guess it didn't make it any better to be remindedhaix...was so lowand sadfelt like screaming and crying at the same timehaixlessons went by in a blurwas suffering in my own emotional hellhaix...school endeddidn't really feel much betterate stuffwent off for bandcleaned up the band roomhaix....how not to be discouragedwhen the extent of ur failure is right in front of ui tried so hardi dunno wad to do anymorepassion is waningits now my joband i really dun wan it to be a chorebut its so hardwhen there's just too many problemsand expectationsit has come to a point tt i dun bother askingcause i dun wan to hear any more liesit's just getting harder n harderthank God tt things lightened up laterrachel camepolished more of my instruwent off for dinnerhaix...talked abt stuffwenthomemore goodnewscamecan can is finally freeshould be going out this sunmaybe to see the phil winds performance?not too sureyeahnessat least there's sumthing to look forward toam tireddun really feel like doing work lei need my sleephaix....i have found out a way to land in hospitalfrm mr chow..hmmm...no matter how i tryto forgetand to let goi stillmiss u-feel my pain-
sudden change in mood
being overwhelmedby sadnessjust thought of somethingsi dunno whybut it makes me real sadsmall thingsaffect me lotespecially nowbeen through a real rough periodfor a while nowthis emotional roller coaster rideis killing metoo many blowsto my fragile soulso lostwithout anything to hold on toi've lost my idealsmy goldsmy ability to smilei'm driving myself madno one can save mebut myselfbut i haf no idea how toso fakeeverything's just so fake-feel my pain-
i dun wan the weekend to end..
hmmm...i dunno whybut i keep waking upevery 4 hrsblahs...can't sleep properlydidn't really do much today...arghi wanna buy a mp3so bored without musichaix...have to save money lefor many many thingsarghmy phone bill went up againi'm so deadhaix...hmmm...wanna get a new phonebut i dunno wad to getn70? or a panasonic?nvm nvmshall not bother too much nowfeeling restlessschool's starting tml...haix...dun really wan to go bac restless.....starts den stops...killing me..from the insidei guessi'll noe when i'm over itthe day i can delete all the thingsyah..tt's a gauge ba...but nowi really can't bear to do it just yeti hopethat i'll stop hurting soon i lost myselfdunno when i'll be me againmaybe neverblaming mefor letting myself go through all thesei dunno whyi'm so dumbto treasure itwhen it probably meant nothing to ui should have listen to the warningsbut saying the words 'should have'shows tt i'm a fool...-feel my pain-
sleepy
saturday is the dey to sleep inhehesince i wasn't going out todayi slept inhmm..but i kept waking upmaybe too used to waking up early in the mornso i woke up once arnd the usual timeden went bac sleepwoke up againden slept againfinally got out of my comfy bed in the afternoonspent the day watching tvand basically nothing elsebro went out to play soccersis was out workingso was at home alone for a whilesis came homewatched tv togetherden mel calledthe whole world is out todayhahadun mind staying homeresthmmmm...i slept summore after talking to melwoke up when mum came homecalled mel againtalked crapas she waited for her food to comefunny order lots cuz she's hungryyepso gal... how was the beehoon?and the milo dinosaur?haha=)watched more tvtoday like the dayi watched the most tv layeahnesscancan...where are ui miss going out with uit's been quite a while there lots of catching up to dotell me soon ya?u really noe how to pick the time i dunno whether to laugh or cryat ur timingshould i be happy or sad tt the silence has been broken?just when i abt to make up my mindu appear againbut i guessi will stick to my decisioncuzi feeland deep down i noethat this is as far as it will getbutthanks for the memoriesthey meant alot to meeven if they didn't to ukept forever in my heart-feel my pain-
i think i can
it's friday!!whootsend of the week againtime really flies...had gp bright n early in the mornsleepybreakden was maths lecthmmm..tried real hard to keep awakebut halfway throughi k.o. lewoke up and found out tt mel scribbled on my noteshaharather funnyand i was trying to study for bio SPA lasoonthe lect endedwent off for chem tutpresenting againafter a while den started new chapwhich i'm totally losthahaskipped those lectdiesbio lecti didn't listenwas doing last min chionging for SPAhmm...SPAwad to say?i hope i did correctly lacuz i dun really noe wad to writeprays hardit dragged on for a whileden went to meet amanda.rachel.graceleft bag in band roomwent out to eatamanda.grace.rachel.weixiang.shiyong.sujinroti pratahahayums...went bac to schoolden went for talksleepy...amanda poked me awake a few timeshahalasted until arnd 4 plusafter ttwent for bandargh!!i can't find my tuner!!!sad sadwhere is my tuner=(dr lee cametried abba goldi really suck at side readinghaix...had to run out halfway to get things frm ms lamwe had pract until 630 plusactually suppose to prac with alumnibut cuz not many comingdrlee cancelled it n let us off earlyyupi fiannly started polishing my instruwith the polishhahabeen wanting tobut no timeso i started with one valveyeah!one at a time bahaha..we waited for mr gay to comeden we leftme.grace.rachelwent to eatkfcwere talking abt talking on the phonefunnyyup..went to interchangegot milkshake again!!hahai like ithahawent to wait for bus with gracesent her offden went cheersbuy magazineso tt got things to read when i boredhahaspent some time in theredunno do wad tooden we talked sum more at the mrt stationden i went homeyupmum was re watching her korean drama againwas watching parts of it with her toohmmm...not going to go out tml againcan can aris one busy been alwaes cannot go out with menvm..we'll find a dayhaha..heard sum stuff abt the tk band...hmm...jia you ppl!!yup..i think i canlet it goand move onthough it hurtsbut sumhowi just noe tt i can leave it behindits just a feelingbut to methis feeling says sumthing abt all of ithaix...but i guess how long it will take is another thing...-feel my pain-
love the airport!! =P
hahawent to airportafter attending 2 lessonswhoohoohahawent with clarie n veethe rest didn't wan to goheheso long never go le!!wanted to go popeyesbut not open yetsadso went haf bk breakfastyum yumstarbucks next!warm choc cake!!!!!yeahnessbut felt a little cheatedcuz dun haf the glooey centrethe 3 of us were like digging to find the centre lacheated lobut still was yummylove loveclarie went off to meet her daddyleft me n veesat here n read urbanhmm...hahawent off to find the other magazine shopwalked arnd n arndthe airport's a big place ya noefinally found itden went check it outmagazine aglorehahawent off to popeyes finallyshared a mealsuper yummy!!hahawas rather distracted by the cartoonshahaoki guess we forgot the timeso we cabbed bac to schhahaspent like a lot of cash lahmmbut had fun this long breakhehei love the airportyeahnesseeksi went back to school smelling of men's perfumedieswas in this perfume shopden this guy just walked intook this bottle and started spraying himselflike alot!!!he was rite beside mehence i also tiowad the ...buay tahan the smell lalike eeksnot niceat least get a nicer perfume lablahs...gp went fineden was chem prachmmm...wat to saewas dying frm crampsteacher talked alotboringdid experiment in pairsden had a frenzy of report writingi went home after ttoh oh!!a big thanks to mel n ber!!!they found my bio file!!!!!yeahnessapparently in the lost n foundweird lacuz it wasn't there the time i checkedbut hecksi got it backyeahness!!thanks thanksyuptook 21 with vee n chootalked a whole lot of crapate the choc frog i bought at the choc shop in airportyum yumi walked homeit was real cloudystarted raining halfwayjust continued walkingletting the rain drench meit's been too long since it rained so hardfelt real goodlistening to music n being in the rainletting it wash everything awaycold n refreshingnicethoughts ran unchecked in my mindthings are not getting betterhaix...suddenly realise sumthing when joce called mehmmm..heck..i write wad i wan la...dun care who reads..just dun judge me by wat i write yayuptml's going to be a long daythere's bio SPA so not done studying for itdieshope can finish going throughby toniteband prac will be until late late toohmm...haixi'm trying to let gogive me timeit may be quite a whileweeks...months...but i'll be able toin the endi read this somewheretoday's newpaper i thinka serious heart attack can kill you quicklybut a broken heart kills you slowlyso true-feel my pain-
Just Want You To Know
looking at your picture from when we first metyou gave me a smile that i could never forgetand nothing i could do could protect me from you that nightwrapped around your finger, always on my mindthe days would blend 'cause we stayed up all nightyeah, you and i were everything, everything to mei just want you to know that i've been fighting to let you gosome days i make it through and then there's nights that never endi wish that i could believe that there's a day you'll come back to mebut still i have to say i would do it all againjust want you to knowall the doors are closing i'm tryin' to move aheadand deep inside i wish it's me insteadmy dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped awayi just want you to know that i've been fighting to let you gosome days i make it through and then there's nights that never endi wish that i could believe that there's a day you'll come back to mebut still i have to say i would do it all againjust want you to knowthat since i lost you, i lost myselfno i can't fake it, there's no one elsei just want you to knowthat i've been fighting to let you gosome days i make it through and then there's nights that never endi wish that i could believe that there's a day you'll come back to mebut still i have to say i would do it all againjust want you to knowthat i've been fighting to let you gosome days i make it through and then there's nights that never endi wish that i could believe that there's a day you'll come back to mebut still i have to say i would do it all againjust want you to know
i love mel
the title is like tt cause mel said sohahatalking to her on phoneshe's confused abt lots of stufftake care dear gal!i'll be there for u?had 2 periods break at the start of the dayslacked at the canteendidn't do muchcopied some notes tt i missed out onwent for peran a littleden teacher did some conditioning exerciseweather is hot hot hot...dieswent for chem lectcopy noteswas tired n sleepy lathe teacher droned on n onfinally break camewent to change at j blockden went to canteenfind class pplate some stuffden went off for maths lessonhaix..still so lostbut thank God tt mr chow is such a nice teacher lago slowly to make sure we get ityupmaths lect nextmrs neo took the lectshe's cute!!hahaalways joke n stuffbut can see she also strict lobut yupstill like her lecturingafter the lectwent off for chinesehahaso guaithe teacher was rather surprised to see almost the whole class therefor once the classroom is quite fullhahadidn't do anythingwas talking to clarie n listening to songsi think the date for the results to come outis the 1st week of march layuplastlywent off for gp lessonwent through ap qni rather like using green pen nowhahalamenesswent off to find tha class pplthey were in the canteen loate noodles n drank juiceden went 7 11 get drink for dr leewent to put the drink in the band roomwent off the the talks by the uniarts n social scienceby smu.nus.ntusome were interesting to listen tobut the last one was plain boringhaharather bad lamaybe cuz sit in there too long lerestless ba?was watching franz n vee play sonic on vee's hpfun game labut sadly i cannot make ithahathe talks went on quite longnot too sure if i interested bahmm..after they endedi went off for bandhmmm...my phone bill!!!whinesmr lim la...use my phone talk to dr lee so longhaix...this month's bill haix....dr lee ended up not coming due to some prob with the moving of househmmmchanges haf been madedunno wad to feel labut haixno choice?hmmmmband went okmoment for rosa seem nicehahahad meeting wif ms leow againyupcleared out of the band room arnd 7 plusthey put up the stuff!!oh yafranz took my spects during the talkden refused to return to meso i had to run down to get it from him b4 he went home after he ccabish him!!hahathe stacks of chairs are freakynvmsent grace offden went off to tm with rachelblur gal kassynleft her hp in the band roomso will meet her tml morn to get it for herhahaso i ate at pastmania 2 days in a rowhahabut nvmwahfull full siabut still drink the milkshake!!hahai like it!strawberry!hahayup go try!!went to train stationtalked a while morethink i will meet her n judith at interchange tml mornso tt i will reach early enoughto open band room yupsadlyi was remined of sum stuffhaixreallysmall n trivial things remind mehaixgoing crazy le ba?went homei guess i'll try to sleep early ba?hahahmmm...i have decidedi'm changing back my old bagi miss iti dunno whyhahaso the crumpler will hibernate at homefor a while firstand maybe get a washingyupper如果你从没出现..我会不会觉得快乐一些haix...i really dunnobut i thinkgiven the chanceto turn bac timei dun think i will change a thingnow...i guessall tt's left is memorieskept deep in meit took me so longto even realise but in just such a short timeso many things happenand became a part of my lifehaixit hurts so bad nowand it gets worstas the days go bytrying so hardnot to carebuta part of mestill wants to noeeven one small inklingbut i guesstt's the way its going to besilencethat painful silencehurts more den i ever thot possible-feel my pain-
tiring day
i dunno whybut i like the number 21hehehaix...been sleeping earlier these few daysbut still so tiredand the dark eye rings are getting worstlike thanks?went to schoolhad assembly in hallmr tan's on re serviceso mrs toh took overgreat?!my gp tutorhad civis with herwas drawing n colouring all the whileno childhood lahad roleplay of a job interveiwrather interestingyupit seems that many ppl frm the class quite like hereverytime they tell me amanda or choo thatwe always give that same facehahafunnywah2 weeks she's going to replace mr tanshe so strict ladiescannot late leaniwaeafter thathad chem tutwent by quite fastcuz my grp presentingfor one qnstood in front of the class for half hr lahaizthink i falling sick soonnext supposed to be bio tutbut wait for teacher so long she like nv comeso we were slacking outside the classme n mummy was walking along the corridor of d blocktalk n talk n talki miss my mei meiso long no see her lemust haf family reunion soonand maybe the gang toohahaafter abt 20 min of waitingthe class concluded that she's not going to comen we all went off for breakhmmmgot rather irritated by some ppli'm not really ur slave u noe?if u wan the keyscan u at least ask nicely?i haf lessons toocan't expect to walk out of class just to pass to u ritewait a while also cannotgive me attitude for watirritating!!went off for maths after ttsian eddiesmr chow was nicelet us off a little earlyso we reached ms khoo's lesson on timewent by quickden dismissedwe all went outsidetalked to our dear ms tan!miss her like madshe's really more like a fren den a teachermissed the days she taught us all econsyupzbut anywayshe's back for 10 weeks for her practical training for sumthing likdatyupand she's going to teach maths toowhoots!hope she gets posted to tp after she's done for nie trainingafter ttwent to band roomgot azfar's calculatorwent off to tmafter much persuaiongot mel to go toowent to eat at pastamaniatried sumthing i never tried b4yupamanda.joce.yishan also ate theresaw franz.choo.jacksonthey going para para lohahaanywaywent off to csafter cherie.khai.derrick.huiping came (sorry if i got ur names wrong)went to take neoprintso there were mel.vee.clarie.me.cherie.kahi.andrewweird combiafter ttthey all went off for movieso me.clarie.melwent to basement to got donutscovered in chocclarie's recommend denot bad lathey went homen i went go look for franz.choo jacksonwatched them play para a whilesian edkong bush man took so long to finish her last dance la...press wring thing againden we went off take neoprint againhahafunnythe guys in the pic never change position dethey lazytook our own sweet time decoratingafter a long long timewe went offfranz is a mad asssay he tired den he just sat down on the flooreven sprawled on the floor for a while cuz we tried pulling him upden cannot make itwent off fianllymet stellawent go buy some thingden finally went off home with chootook 15walked homehot day...but dunno why dun really feel the heatwas thinking lots on the way homei guess i think alotwhen i'm alonehmm...shall go do thingsn sleep earlyat least try toowanting to carebut i get the feel tt it is not wantedso i shall spare myself the paincuz i rather not get the cold replies anymoreonce is enoughif my concern is not wantedden it shall not be givenno matter how much i want tohaix...even dumb little songs cuz me to rememberi'm really causing myself too much paini thinkthis timeit will take much longer to forgetas mel saidletting go is the hardestbut i'll trycuz it's hurting too muchcosting me too muchit's really killing mefrom the insideslowly but surelyso scarred by it allleave the past in the pastlife really does go onbut the heart is often stubbornand wants to stay in the pastwith all the memorieshaix...though i want to move oni'm unwilling to let gojust yet-bruised so bad n hurting too much-
bad start to the week
had a horrible nitedidn't sleep well againwas almost late for schoolpe was okbut tiringbio lect went finebut i forgot to bring notes for chem lectlecturer's voice was like a lullabytried so hard to keep awakelucky i helped franz copy notesso i didn't sleephad breakbut was doing bio drawing graphsbio tut nextwent okone period breakatedied eating the noodlestoo spicy..gpkept dozing offwhile marking compreweather was hotbeing in the classroom was almost unbearableafter gpwas maths tutlost for mathsso deadhead was poundingfelt absolutely horriblewhen lesson finally endedwent off to band roomslacked with rachwent to on air conwas really tiredreally wanted to sleepalmost didbut the meeting startedhaix...let's hope everything goes wellcuz there is so many many more problems already sprouting outhaix...if it is meant to bei guess we'll all noe by mayi dunno wad to hope..i guessmaybe it really has to be this batchhaix...headache got no betterstarted to feel feverishreally felt horrid on the insidehad a hard time concentratingand brain storminglater went to eatsorry if my mood was badsorry if i affected otherssorry if i shouldn't have said thingshaix...was so tired i could haf slept standing up at the bus stopi almost didhaix...went homewatched campus superstarsome of them went for itmel.jy.pauline.franz.chootired lethanks to those that caredjoke of the daymum cooked beehoon soup for dinnerreally feeling horrible so confused n frustrated my mind's in a messhurting everytime i rememberor am remindedwhich is more n more frequentnoweven the slightest thing reminds mefeel like screamingto let some of this pain n frustration get outbut nothing is able to express wad i feelhaix...maybe xin ni's ritedepressionbut i dun think so..haix...not a good day-the pain is unbearable-
天灰
如果你不再出现我的世界还有什么可贵可惜不够时间让我们试验什么叫永远想念变成怀念心动变成心碎偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁我的天空今天有点灰我的心是个落叶的季节我不知道如何度过今夜所有的灯早已经全都熄灭如果你从没出现我会不会觉得快乐一些可惜残忍时间总要把诺言一点点摧毁想念变成怀念心动变成心碎偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁我的天空今天有点灰我的心是个落叶的季节我不知道如何度过今夜所有的灯早已经全都熄灭我的天空今天有点灰我的心是个落叶的季节我不知道如何度过今夜所有的灯早已经全都熄灭我的天空今天有点灰我的心是个落叶的季节我不知道如何度过今夜所有的灯早已经全都熄灭feelings that i couldn't find words to expressare all found in this songplease save me from myself
finally its friday...
i reached school earlier todayas compared to the past few daysyeahness...first 2 lessons were gphad the debate thingywas supposed to help write down points for my grp on the whiteboardbut i was slow and dunno wad laaccording to amandai wrote a little n den just stoned at the boardafter the 1st speaker talkedhahai really couldn't remember the word i wanted to useso dumb lalucky amanda came up n helped me went by quite fastden went for breakate a little stuffhad 2 periods of maths lect after ttwas dozing off after a whiletired siaden so boring toomr chow was not in a very good mood tooso lect was more boring den normalhmmmsome ppl's mood were not so good laden kinda pissed another offwitnessed ithaix..dunno wad's wrong nowadayseveryone's more n more temprementalwent off for chem tutwent by quicklyhmm...having make up lessons in march hols for chemsian ednext was bio lectwas ok lastudied most of it in sec sch leso quite easylast 2 periods were bio praceveryone was tired alreadyhowever the prac was quite funhad to do with agar platesbut it was time consumingso we were not let off early this timewent off to canteen with the class pplhad lunchtried sum food frm the western stallnot bad lahahamy class arreally share food like no one's business laeveryone just kope each other's foodrather funny laso we ate n crappedwaiting for time to passarnd 2went to band room with franztalked to amanda t den went off to get my baghmmmamanda happy hor?heheanywaywent for the ntu mass comm talk the course is rather interestinghmm...but i'm not sure if tt's wad i wanna takeso i went off for band lateit was still sectionalsplayed a littletalked to someoneu noe wadeveryone's frustrated abt itit's not as if we didn't try to do anything abt itbut u urself noe tt it's not so easyi've tried to talk but it doesn't seem to workit just goes in one ear and rite out the otherbut i trynot to get discouragedif noti would be sad n pissed off for almost every practiseat leasti triedand am still tryingso dun be discouraged ya??dr lee camehe decided to give thoery lesson instead of conductingwas teaching us his concepts on intonationwoahcan go mad learningit takes a while to get it lahorizontal n veritical intonationwoahshaha...was freezing sitting there lahe taught for abt 2 hrsden we were dismissedwent to slack with rach on the 3rd leveltalked alotabt life n stuffwent downsat outside band roomand talked sum moresaw my senior shufen!so long never see her lehahashe's my senior frm tkgs n tpjc toohmm...haha i remember being super scared of her thenthose were the days manwent to track theredear gracei hope everything works out for u dun be so frustrated yathere's many here to help n support udun bottle it all up ya?i'll be there for utake care gal!!went to eat dinner at tmart with grace n rachelwaited with grace for her dadden took bus to interchange with rachelhahawe ended up eating ice cream!!arghzdripped a little ice cream on my bag straphaix...talked n lamed arndden i went off homereached rather latearnd 10 plustiring dayplanning to stay in bed for most of tmlhahadid my ears decieve me?or did i really hear wad i heard?haix...i dunnomaybe i came up with the worst case conclusionbut tt's just me rite?i dunno wad to feel anymoreso tired of the hopingits so cold all of a suddenso much sott i'm hurt by the stinging coldnessbut i guessi was the one who allowed myselfto be in tt position to feel such hurtdo u noesumtimes just being in a place or looking at thingsreminds me of the pastthinking too much is not goodbut i can't help itflashbackshaix...trying to put up a brave fronttrying to leave it behindtrying to let wounds healtrying to let gotrying so hardbutall the tryingis so tiringdrifting farther n farthermaybe we were never close to begin withbut wadever we hadis goneor least tt's wad i feelbreaking into a million pieces
brain drain
argh!!late for school today!!been leaving home later by the daydunno whyhaf to stop!!butfunny thing wasgot ppl pei me late togethermet sherlyn.choo.ber at the gatehehrushed off to band room to meet gracewas supposed to open band room fir her b4 school lasorry gal!!we talked quite alotden i rushed off for bio lectwent in a little latebut teacher haven really startedso lucky melect went finebut i almost dozed off half waybio tut in labwas ok labut i almost slept in the end cuz i forgot to bring the other bookdiesafter ttwent off to canteenskipped chi so had 6 periods breakstarted studying for chem SPAwrote in out on this yellowing piece of paperi found at homewhich jieying called the 50 year old paperhehewrite n writetried to cram everything into my brainden went off to eattalked a while den went back to studying againi baiscally spent the WHOLE 6 periodsin the canteen STUDYING!!so proud of myself k?it's a first at least a first thursday dat i didn't sleep through the 6 period breakhad heachache halfwaydunno whyeither is too long never drink coffeeor it's cuz of franzjoking lahehememory is going down the drainbut was rather freaking out lacuz scared see question den blank outwah...skill a really sucks lahmmm...i find tt i can study almost everywhere in canteen also canhahaweather rather hot todaybut was cloudy at timeswonder when is it going to rain at 1.30went off for gp lessonwas supposed to discuss debatebut the group was more preoccupied with choosing the speakersso the three of us just wrote out points and gave it to themall of us sian sian den talked a littlewent off 5 min earlierSPAwahscared siaand for a momentafter staring at the questioni just blanked out lahaix...bad memoryden later when started writingkept mixing things up and seeing things wronglydiesoh ya...back was also achingi dunno whyat least i wrote everything in timeand hopefully correctlyhad time to check thank the Lordwent running after thatwhile some of the class peepswent to play badmintonafter runningtalked to amanda darling a littleden went off with the class ppl to bubble teawhere more of them werebought drink n waffletalked n crapped a lotit's been a while since the class did such stuffso glad la!!really missed such class outing leyuptalked n talkedden after quite a while arnd 5 pluswe all went offtook 29 with mel.franz.amanda.jackson.nicholastalked to franzden went homemum was shocked to see me home earlyhahaden bro too when he came homehe tio shock...hrmph...it's as if i never come home like that la...anywayi knocked out while reading magazineslept until sis came homeate dinneryummy duck ricewatched a little tvwas this programme showing how ppl decorate their homeswith the theme blacksaw quite a few tt i rather liked too!!hmmm...hope next time can haf my own home tt's decorated like tt toodid band stuffrealised tt i haven been online till late for 2 days lehehe...just came and check mail den i go off leyup...i think my hair's going crazy...argh...it's been a whilei dunno wad to say anymorei guess it's been heading this wayfor a while nowbuti'm still not prepared to face the truththat is rite in front of methe silence continues...
