footprints of life: January 2006

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

last day of the hols..

wow...
in a flash...
the long hols is ending le
tml
its bac to school
hmmm...
kinda wan to go back
and kinda dun too

woke up arnd 10 in the morn
soon after
went to uncle's place
had lunch there
sat arnd and chatted
drank red wine
its supposed to be a good wine
not bad
den the gambling started
out came the mahjong table
haha
watched them play
for a while
den went to watch tv
sat arnd sum more
den we went off arnd 3
hot hot day again
went to enous to meet
franz.jackson.maggie
we den went to bugis
to meet choo and her bf
watched franz n maggie eat
den sent choo off
walked all the way to parkland
to play pool
with franz.maggie.jackson.jason
haha...
so long never play le
skills still suck...
played for quite a while la
erm...3 hr plus ba
but today
dun really haf the mood to play
dunno why
worst still
halfway
den the place started to play
guo mei mei's bu pai bu pai
in all variations
dies...
hear the SAME song for like
half hour?
continous....non-stop
dies.. =s
after we left the place
walked sum more to plaza sing
ate at burger king
den off to take neoprints
haha
we all look SUPER white in them la
dangs...
went home soon after
took train with franz n maggie
talked abt movie saw 2
yup
that's abt my day la

tired
going to sleep soon le
must must
dark eye rings....
still there
haix...

mel : it was meant to be able to be read...ya...if it wasn't it wun be there...ya..and i never forget u lo....so bad tell everyone i forget u...

haix...
frm the way it's going
everyone going to noe real soon
like thanks ar
as if it isn't already obvious enough

i wanna get a new handphone
but i dunno wad to get
hmmm...
still looking
i also wanna get tt perfume
i think it's nice
hmmm.....
there's also other things i wanna get
haix...
but should i?...
think think...

i think
there's something
seriously wrong with me
something that has absolutely no link
reminds me of stuff
will go mad
real soon

Monday, January 30, 2006

argh...

argh...
can't have dinner in peace
haix....

sumtimes
i really hate doing such stuff
argh....

after much hard work
my phone bill has gone down
by ALOT
haha...
congraulations to me...
=D

dinner with my paternal side of the family
was seated with the 2nd generation
as we are called
we are a quiet bunch
nothing much to say
hmm..
was mostly talking
abt general things
distracted halfway though
haix...
hope everything goes well
if everything works out
most prob tml will
be going aunt's house

with all the sms-ing
that i've been doing
these few days..
ithink
my bills going to explode yet again
haix...
there goes all my hard work

i dunno why
but
things that are not related to u
remind me of u
i'm thinking too much about u

yeahness
everything's settled
i hope

going off to lala land

Sunday, January 29, 2006

chinese new year

so fast
and its the
1st day of CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

woke up in the morn
lazed around the house
ate sum goodies
den went to grandma's place
wah....
today's a hot hOT day
faints
reached granma's arnd 1 plus
was the earliest
haha
mum thot we will be the latest la
so that was the start of the movie marathon
kinda
started with kungfu hustle
den initial d
hmmmm....
i like initial d...
watched it last time with class ppl
after that
went off to aunt's house
had dinner
den yet another movie
a korean movie called volcanoe high
hmmm...
got to see many of my relatives i haven seen for a while
but sadly
we didn't talk much
oh well
went home
and that's the end of the 1st day of CNY

sumhow
i dun really feel the CNY mood
i dunno why
but i just dun
where has all the excitment gone?
hmmm....

we used to be able to talk
for so long
that a day seemed to be
too short
we used to be able to talk
about everything
that made life so interesting
but now
it seems
wat we want to say
can be concluded
in a f ew sentences
it seems
that there's nothing much
to talk about anymore
except that one topic
the one that wasn't really talked about before
hmmmmm...
thinking too much?
maybe....

random thoughts

still waiting
for the phone to ring
still waiting
for the impossible to happen

Saturday, January 28, 2006

view of clarke quay at nite...

i'm a happy gal....i love my 18th birthday

jieying n me at haagen daz

the gals at clarke quay...

went there on the nite of my 18th bday

i really really love the bag....thanks everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!

look wat they did to my arms....but thanks ya??? i went to clarke quay likdat la

some of the ppl that made my birthday so wonderful!!!!

my cutest xiao dong xi!!!!!!!

clarke quay at nite!! on my birthday... =P

Friday, January 27, 2006

chinese new year celebrations

went to school
many of the j1s didn't come
like about half?
expected la
first two periods was gp
got quite a few never attend
did a mini debate on the eassy qns
sian...
break
went to do chem report after that
instead of lecture
den went for the concert
sian x 2 ...
went to fetch clarie
who came to hand in report
and go out with us...
den went bandroom
get the things
concert ended arnd 12
went to find joce n amanda
to pass teachers cny gifts
haix...
felt a little bad
den went to find class ppl
slacked in the canteen
drank juice
and waited for time to pass
school's weird la
concert end at 12
open gates only at 1250
nth to say
went to bus stop
crowded dao...................
so after a while
decided to cab to tm
like wow
haha
heck la
was soo hot la
took cab with claire n mel
den mel went off
went to find daphne.jieying.feng
but ended up going to check movie timing
after much waiting
we went to buy tics
in her shoes
it seems that only a few places show shopaholic
hmm..
went in late
but the movie was not bad la
not say fantastic
but still ok
got some touching parts la...
me n feng..
haha..
think too much man
rite vee??
hmm...
i like that poem...
may go find it...
we den went to eat
all of us were like starving la
didn't eat ma
pastamania again
haha
talked n crapped
as usual
den feng went off to get her new phone
we sat and talked till abt 5
den we went off
saw xin ni n desmond there
got to see ex-classmate yunting too
took train home with clarie n daphne
one who is going to watch more movies with family
and the other shopping
haha
and me
went home to do housework
so nice la...
believe or not
i cleaned all the floors in my house
plus the stairs
dies
haha..
ate a little for dinner
watch tv
and i fell asleep on the floor
hmm...
woke up abt half hr later
headaching again
went to sleep
on my bed
but
i kept getting woken up
by this caller
wrong no.
but keep calling
haix...
woke up arnd 10 plus
went to help mum sum more
think i'm falling sick
flu...
called mel...
talked a little

dun think i will be able to sleep anytime soon
hmmm...

tonight's a clear nite
stars are beautiful
when i see stars
memories of the past come back..
i dunno why
but it just does

distance in between
is widening
i can feel it
its sad u noe
hmmm..
maybe i pulled away
i dunno...

amanda : haha.... sumone so high eh??
good start to the new year!!!

long break ahead..
but it's going to pass fast
hmm...
wonder if the class can meet up on tues
den can haf reunion dinner of sorts
haha..

dun haf the new year mood
i haf no idea why

absence makes the heart grow fonder..

Thursday, January 26, 2006

wat a day..

late for school again
wait for cab until late la..
dangs
grand entrance into school
was like 20 mins late for the lect le
so didn't go in
went band room do things
hmmm
this time
my left eye was red
and watering non-stop
last time was the right eye
went for bio tutorial
with my eyes hurting
how nice
couldn't really concentrate
and i still haven
photocopy all the notes i lost
haix..
skipped chi
went canteen
ate a little
den went out of school
pei amanda go ployclinic
actually is suppose to be with mel too
but that gal ar..
boarding bus tt time
fogot to bring out wallet
so she didn't go
wait n wait n wait
almost slept there la
after she's done
went back to school
slacked in canteen again
all the way until 1.30 la
sian half...
in the morn
when already late tt time
i almost didn't wan to go school la
cuz like got 6 period break
only thing worth attending was chem prac
but i had to come
to do things
gp lesson
i was dozing off
while dicussing the qn la
so u can imagine my hadwriting
flying all over the the paper
scribbling
and my grp mates
were like playing
so ya
slept..
chem prac
tired until..
was kinda slacking
lucky for us
lesson ended earlier today
and she allow us to hand in report tml
yeahness..
hung arnd outside the lab area
talking and just resting
i like sitting there..
on that table
hmm
went off to band room for awhile
den we went off to tm

my dearest mel...
i noe that u haf been feeling
depressed and troubled by it
for a while now
but wadeva it is
i will be there
to lend a listening ear
and a shoulder for u to lean on
i promise
i will be there for u k?
like u were there for me
i noe
that sumtimes
due to stuff that i have to do
and kept me busy
i'm rather uncontactable
but i will be there ya?
talking it out
it works
feeling messed up inside
is a feeling that really sucks
but
everything will work out fine
cuz i'll help u through it ya?
dun think so much
it doesn't really help
i think
it's time we go beach again
let the wind blow away
both our problems
ya...
love u dear gal...
hope that u feel better after today
ya..
next time
i noe wad to find
to cheer u up le

ate dinner
crapped and talked
den went home
i fell asleep on the train
it seems that
i keep falling asleep
hmmm
headaches for no apparent reasons too
haix..

i think
that ever since entering jc
i'm falling sick easier
i wonder why
haix

tempted to ask
really

still haf to go write report
going school tml
so guai
hand in report
and finish doing stuff
den it's off to the movies with class peeps
i think
hope can get to watch
it's been a while since i watched a movie
shudders at the thought of the last movie

long break this weekend
yeahness

missed the times
when everything was different
missing u

BiG BiG WorLd
I'm a big big girl
in a big big worl
It's not a big big thing
if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way
I'm feeling inside
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...I
have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyesyou're gone...
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much...

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

stoned

the day
started out ok..
had the first two periods free
spent it in the canteen
talked and read alittle magazine
saw a rather amusing horoscope
for me in it
reagan borrowed sumone's guitar
and he started singing
nice voice
entertaining la

had pe next
ran yet again
muscles aches like mad
den chem lect
break
maths tuorial
i really cmi for maths le la
dies
maths lect
the lecturer decided to irritate my class
when its not our fault
so..
i guess
dun blame us for our attitude
after that
chi
ya...i went for chi
haha
den gp
which was the last lesson
after that
went to find the rest of the class

hung arnd
at the tables
deciding wat to do
i feel
rather bad
that everytime
they wan to do things or go out
i can't
due to other stuff
after much persuation
we went bubble tea stall
drank something
den went bac for band

tried to get somethings done

it's unfair
the way u say things
it's like
dunno how to sae
haix
everyone has the right
to vent their feelings
in the heat of a moment
things said
may not really be meant

i learnt sumthing
frm this
things get distorted easily
especially words

had sectionals for a while
den combine
it's improving
but
it's still not up to standards
still so far away
but
it's a start

had dinner
with amanda.joce.farhan.rachel.darren.jianxiong.chonghui.weixiang
stayed to watch amanda.joce.farhan.rachel
play cards
i guess
i was stoning
most of tt time
cuz dun understand how to play
went home after that

i will take ur advices
i noe that it's not easy
i will continue to try
i will do my best
to lead
but feeling disheartened
is part of being human
faced with diasapointment
i can only feel so
but
i wun let it drag me dowm
at least not too much
learning frm mistakes and continuing
is wad i will do
doing things
for the good of others
but do they even noe?
it's hard
when others are pushing for things
to be done
sumtimes
to decide wat to do
it so hard
for the good of the ppl or for the good of the band?
it's hard to strike a balance
with time running so short
and so many thing yet to be done
it makes things harder
but
i will try
my best
to achieve that balance

thanks
for everything

time is getting shorter
there are things yet to be done

is there a reason why
i cannot give up?
fell in too deep
it's hard to get out of it
but
maybe
i dun wan to forget
just yet
cuz
it really meant alot to me
can't help
but wish
my phone will ring
day in n day out
i wait
for an inkling
that it meant sumthing to u too
but i guess
i will never noe
but
i wished that it did
has all hopes been extinguished?
i really dunno
but i do noe
that i still think about u

do u noe
how much it hurts
to see sumthing within sight
yet its alwaes out of reach?
a lot..

do u noe?i really wonder...

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

tired..both phyiscally & emotionally

tiring day
tutorials all the way
sian...
fell asleep in maths tutorial
just couldn't take it le
head was aching like mad too
flat out just slept
really think
that there's something wrong
with my head
headaches coming too frequently
eye also quite red the whole day
hmmm...

by the end of lessons
was drained
den things had to come up

frustration added upon fatique
became too much

i'm sorry
i noe i said things too
got frustrated too
i noe
that i shouldn't have off my phone
but
at that point of time
i think enough was said
i didn't wan to say more
cuz
i dun wan to sae things
that i will regret later

went running
with mel.amanda.choo
put my mind off things
talked to franz n jackson
ran a little more
we hung arnd the grand stand
for a while
it seems
that
i like to go there
just to stare out
to the field

went tm
ate
and walked arnd a little
real glad that i had the ppl arnd me
amanda bought drinks
ya
it felt good
went home
n cooked dinner
ya...i can cook...

i'm tired
really
not enough slp
plus not sleeping well
maybe
the headaches are warnings
i want to slp
and maybe
not wake up until it suits me
which will be a long period of time

everyone has difficulties
i noe
but seriously
dun say things
that u can't be sure u can do

am i really
that difficult to talk to
that unreasonable?
that u can't tell me ur difficulties

problems upon problems upon problems
they are compounding each other
becoming harder and harder to solve

i starting to wonder
who am i now
i'm changing
into someone
i barely noe

i'm giving
too much
into this

the feelings in me now
are just one big mess
in turmoil with one another

i'm losing myself
too fast
lost inside..
the light
has gone out in my life
i'm just getting by
day by day

bruised and hurt
too many times
i no longer
allow myself to trust in it
anymore
and from wat i see
it was really me
who thought too much
into it
and allowed myself to hope

like glass
it's breaking
again..

tired n drained
it's as if
i wrung dry on the inside
God
give me the strength
to go on
and face this truth

wat's on the surface
may not be wad
it really is below

sumtimes
it's just easier
to put on a mask

but sumhow
i still can't help
but miss u

Monday, January 23, 2006

again

it's gone
really gone
my file
wah
damn sad
all my notes
worst still
daphne's spa report
i'm sorry gal
really!!!
so sorry
haix
feel like a dumb idiot
=(

the day was fine
relatively

morning was nice n cool
perfect for running
lessons went by fine

went bubble tea still for a drink
den off to band

all i can sae now
is that
i'm trying
real hard
but
everything takes time
i noe
time is short
but
things do take time to change
i'm doing all i can
but i can't do it alone

the situation that i am in
is not easy
i noe that everyone is facing difficult problems too
but if change is to happen
everyone must change
compromise must be reached
cant expect the only one side to change
both sides must change
together

words and the tone used
makes a very big difference

haix
i feel it building
i really wan to solve it
i have to

i gave my whole into it
but do anyone noe?
the crashing dissapointment
i feel

hiding behind the mask
is a battered gal

i have many things to sae
will anyone listen
i said it not once
not twice
but many many times
but it doesn't get through
does it?
do u noe
how it feels
to stand there?
wanting to say so much
wanting it all to mean sumthing
hoping it will help
hoping things will change
but
only to see
that it meant nothing
nothing at all
it all went to waste
yet again

i noe
that sum dun agree
with my approach
to the problem
but
i'm only human
and
i'm really trying

i wan to get things done too
i dun wan to dissapoint anymore
i too
wan to live up to all the expectations
i need all the support
that i can get

stuck in the middle
knowing alot
but dunno how to go on
without hurting anyone

the hopless i feel
it tears away at me
i'm becoming
a shadow
of wat i was before

i'm walking
very blindly
the flame burning
in my hands
is dying
faster and faster
it's getting darker

the choice
has been made
by all of us
when will u work harder
to fulfil the dream?

i try
and will continue to try
work with me
please?

facing it all
alone
it's painful

mel: gal..thanks for always being there..and sorry...i noe tt it's taking up alot of my time..'again?' as u always sae..ya...again

never far from my thoughts
always there
in my mind
out of sight
out of mind
does not work for me
the difference i feel now
hurts
but
there's nothing i can
or will do

u are like a star
so beautiful
in the inky sky
but so out of reach
always so out of reach

feeling feverish...

Sunday, January 22, 2006

careless=me

argh
dun understand
how careless i could get
i actually lost my file
it has all my bio things la
worst still
i need to hand in bio work tml
dies

ya..
can confirm
that i left it in the canteen
haix
hope it's still there
or at least in the lost n found
and that i can find it
prays.....

it has been a while
since the nite was so clear
the stars tonight
are so beautiful
and there are so many
haiz
i wish
that i was at the beach tonight
den i can really see them

maybe soon

is it just me
or have things really changed
i feel that it has
hmmm....
thinking too much?
i dunno
but i dun think so
it just feels diff
and wat do i feel abt it?
sad..?
haix...........

i wan to go back
to den..

full house

"you are not someone who is nothing to me"
lee young-jae said that to han ji-eun

sweet...

and so true
if i could
i would sae it too

hmmmm....

i realised sumthing
while talking to someone online
last nite

many ppl
have different perception
of me
kinda surprising really

now i noe
how some view me
and think of me
but i guess
all these can change with time

the longer
u noe someone
the more u noe
rite?

but
that also depends on
how close u are
to that person
and also on that person too

there are always many sides to things
and people
life's one great mystery

i should noe

it took me one year
to finally realise
that u existed
although u
were always sumhow around
i never did noe
until den
so amazingly funny
i guess the joke's on me

hmmm...
there's tons things i need to buy!!
-new handphone (although i quite like the one i'm using now..old but still nice)
-pencil case
-wallet
-shoes
-earrings & stuff (they seems to have all gone missing)
-clothes
-jacket
-slippers
there's more....

was asked to go shopping today
but had to stay home to help out
spring cleaning
of sorts

there's tons of things to be done
but
i can't find the time
to do them all
first things first
so
i guess
shopping will be last on the list
sad...

sumhow or other
i still find myself
thinking....
waiting...
missing...

Saturday, January 21, 2006

hey!

i wanna watch movieS....
so many i want to watch
but i can't find the time...
hm...
sad...
hope i find time in the near future
before they are not shown anymore
memoirs of a geisha
in her shoes
the shopaholics
Pride And Prejudice
King Kong
hm....
so many huh?...

shopping
yet another thing
i haven done for a while
hm...

sorry to my class ppl
nowadays
a little busy with stuff
always cannot go out
with u all after lessons
i noe u all keep saying me
sorry k?

my eyes
have been watering
non-stop
since the afternoon
no idea why
now it hurts
and
they are a little swollen
i think
haix..

been getting headaches
quite frequently
wonder wat's wrong

i guess
i'm the only one
that waits
for the impossible to happen

u noe
that song
jay chou's 浪漫手机
it really meant
alot
at least
it did
to me

everything in life
is so fleeting
i guess
that's why
u haf to teasure every moment

i wonder
if i did

wad would i do
if i could go bac in time
i really wonder

it's like this...

it comes to a point
where
i am no longer able
to feel anything
this numbness
it surrounds me
blocks out everything
only extreme feelings
get through
that thick blanket
covering me

these short burst
of emotions
are my only contact
to life

besides those
i'm just
floating along
getting on
without much feeling

numb

maybe
it is better like that
with this numbness
life passes
like a blur

den maybe
i'll be able
to forget
and leave
these haunting memories
behind...

Friday, January 20, 2006

whoosh..

whoosh...
and one week is gone
so fast

it's friday...
already

school was fine
tried to do some last min studying
for bio test
but
it doesn't work

lessons went by
let off early from bio lab
went canteen
ate
and drank juice
i think
i'm rather hooked
on guava n juice
haha..

tried to study sum more
but nothing went in

went for bio test
mind was a blank
anyhow whack
haha..
imagine la
got ppl leave after 1/2 hr
by the time the paper was to end
almost everyone left le
dun think teacher had to say stop writing
hmmm...

went for band
mr lim talked to us
another spilled drink...
dangs
den
talked outside
dr lee came
talked & decided things
combine
rather ....
ended
talked sum more
n
talked more
now that it's decided
let's jia you k?
we can do it ya?
i noe we can
we need to work together for it..

went to meet class ppl
after talking sum more
by the gate

starbucks!!
i miss that place
all the slacking
talking n fun we had there
although
i didn't get anything to drink
sat there n talked a while
with clarie.feng.mel.pauline.jieying
yup
i really missed going there with u all
finally we get to go there together again!
den decided to eat dinner
pauline went off
den saw

OSHA!!!
i miss u tons
i think i kinda screamed a little loud
but i really missed u!!
so long never see u le
hugs
I MISS U!!!
*muacks*

haha..
went to have dinner
at pasta mania
it been kinda long since i ate there
yah.....
had fun talking and crapping and discussing
den
we went home
took train with clarie
talked somemore
walked home
the long way
like walking home at nite
gives me time to think
and reflect
and just be on my own
it's nice

another week
full of things
whoosh...
they are all history now

to everyone
that is not feeling well
take care!!

daphne : come back to school soon!!! missed ya lots!!
amanda : rest well ya? take care of urself!!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

thursday

for some reason
i like thursdays
ya
it's a nice day

its near the end of the week
but not really there
not sure if any one will get it
but yup

still in school
a long way to go

hot day
gonna be stuck in the lab
for a long time
dies

slept in the library again
tried to study
but ended up sleeping
tired
and things arn't going in

hmm...
class ppl are falling sick
pls take care
maybe its the weather
haix
i wanna fall sick too

i'm going a little mad
i think
yup
hmmm...
wonder why

wonder how feeling now

caring too much
is not too good
at least
that's how it seems to me

have u ever wondered
wat someone else is thinking?
i have
i guess most have too

wondering too much
thinking too much
caring too much
it's not good

letting go
a little at a time
that's the best i can do now

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

only if

only if
i had
the confidence
den
this wun even
bothered me
for so long

sometimes
i really wonder
if noe

mag ar mag
it seems
u tend to get into
such situations
quite frequently

everyday's a new day
rite?

to frens
thanks for all ur advices
thanks for being there for me

another

a perfectly fine day
was destroyed
all because of one single call

have u ever considered
that i need time
to travel?
i called
to tell u
out of courtsey
but
u had to be
so ridiculous
in ur demands

i said before
i'm not like them
stop comparing
they take less time to get home
for a reason
cuz their schools are nearer
much much much

tried to tell u
that it was too little time
so that u wun get pissed
if i was late
but i insisted
and flared up at me
for trying to tellu the truth

another limit
another outbrust
another breakdown

i really really
thank u God
for giving me
such a fren like mel
that was able to
feel my feelings

u called
when i most needed someone
to be there
and all u said
was u felt like
u needed to call me
i noe
that i most prob said
many things u didn't really get
and found out many other things

all i can say is
thanks
really really

things just poured out
tears too
maybe no one noticed
but i almost almost reached the end
where breakdown awaited

thanks gal
for just being there

on the bus
it fell
silently
uncontrollably
a first

i'm really
no longer myself
who is this person now?

i dunno
i really dun

too many thing crowds my mind
feeling so trapped
where can i find solace?
not in school
not at home

problems in school
problems from home
problems from myself

i'm drowning in them

problems due to
are so hard to solve
but i really wan to noe
but
maybe
it's time to really give up
there's too many thing now
to think abt
anymore
but
the almost there
it haunts me
the memories
it reminds me

i keep saying n saying
when will i ever do it

there's just too many things
i'm afraid
i can't handle
if i fall
who will be there
for me?

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

...

for some unknown reason
my palms are aching
it's frustrating
can't do things properly
and it hurts..

been getting headaches
throughout the day
i wonder why
never use to get them
maybe
my head is going to break open soon

it seems
that many are falling sick
mostly of sore throats n flu
please take care ya?

i dunno why
but i feel
that i have lost contact
with many of my old frens
both class ppl & band ppl
i rather miss the times
we spent together
when things were simpler
where there weren't so many problems

i believe
that i've changed alot since then
maybe not appearance wise
but in everything else

i miss many things
it hit me today
that the class outings
we use to have
after our ccas
have stopped
there's no more starbucks
or dinners
lunches out together haf
become few and far in between
i miss the days
ya...
i really do

many things run through my mind
but i dunno
how to phrase it out
cuz most of them are random thots

i wonder
when will i ever
be able to smile effortlessly
as i used to

there's many things
bothering me
but
i guess the biggest one
is the hardest to solve
cuz
i dun haf the courage

everywhere i turn
i am faced with memories

sianz...

i've got to start leaving the house earlier
reaching school later and later
dunno if today was late or not
haix..

slept through most of the talks the teachers were giving..
tired

den to civis class
fortune cookie!!
haha
fun fun

baiscally
for the rest of the day
we stayed in the SAME classroom
dangs
had no lectures
all tutorial
worst
in the same classroom
-.-

by the end of the day
all of us
so tired le
brain drain
but
the torture continued
had extra lesson of chem
cuz teacher changed our lesson
at least it was in other classroom

when that finally ended
most of us hung arnd outside the class
debating whether to go of chi

went off to photocopy things

ended up not going for lesson
thot was lecture
but when leaving sch
found out it was not
oops

went to tm wif amanda
ate
talked
walked arnd
den took 31 with her
slept most of the way
got off at bedok n took train

yup
and now..
i'm home

its been quite a while since i got home so early
not used to it

it rained
hard

as i was walking home
it came to me

people alwaes said
let fate decide
i said it a few times too

so
maybe
even before it started
it was already decided

everything in life happens for a reason rite?
sumtimes i just wished i knew
wat the reason was
why things became the way they are
why did somethings even happen

why is all i can ask..
cuz i dun haf the answers
i guess
no one really does

out of sight
does it really mean
out of mind?
if so
why do i still think
still miss

i guess
that's cuz it's me

footprints of life